Bleh...
I cried for three hours or so last night. I was upset and hurt and angry and no matter how hard I tried to do it, I couldn't think of anything positive. I just kept thinking "I'm not good enough, that's why" and I couldn't help it.
Sexual frustation will do that to me. EVERY TIME.
I also came home this morning, downloaded some fresh porn from a certain alterna-girl site that's not SG, and did a whole lot of self touching, and now...I'm fine. Or at least better.
I could use a hug (or 10) though...
Finally brought Drumzilla his cookies, though he didn't get to actually eat many since everyone else got to them first.
I'm on a serious mission to find myself a home, because as of right now...I have none, and I don't like it much.
(Would anyone like a cute, mischevious, pink haired room mate? I cook, I clean, and I make fantabulous cookies.
)
Moving on..
Motivation time, methinks. It's laundry time, then cleaning time, then off to the gym, and then off to find myself a job or two. ( <--Go Team Run-On Sentence!) And, *gasp!*, I'm actually going out tonight. To actually do something. And even though that 'something' is watching zombie movies and being an ass, it's still 'something,' which, last time I checked, was better than 'nothing.'
So yeah...
Love me, please.
I cried for three hours or so last night. I was upset and hurt and angry and no matter how hard I tried to do it, I couldn't think of anything positive. I just kept thinking "I'm not good enough, that's why" and I couldn't help it.
Sexual frustation will do that to me. EVERY TIME.
I also came home this morning, downloaded some fresh porn from a certain alterna-girl site that's not SG, and did a whole lot of self touching, and now...I'm fine. Or at least better.
I could use a hug (or 10) though...
Finally brought Drumzilla his cookies, though he didn't get to actually eat many since everyone else got to them first.
I'm on a serious mission to find myself a home, because as of right now...I have none, and I don't like it much.
(Would anyone like a cute, mischevious, pink haired room mate? I cook, I clean, and I make fantabulous cookies.
)
Moving on..
Motivation time, methinks. It's laundry time, then cleaning time, then off to the gym, and then off to find myself a job or two. ( <--Go Team Run-On Sentence!) And, *gasp!*, I'm actually going out tonight. To actually do something. And even though that 'something' is watching zombie movies and being an ass, it's still 'something,' which, last time I checked, was better than 'nothing.'
So yeah...
Love me, please.
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It's big, it's heavy, it's wood, it's better than bad it's good.