Bleh.
Damn near everything in my life is just shit right now.
I hate being dramatic, but I know damn well that most of the time, I'm just that and I can't even help it.
I slept for almost 13 hours straight last night. I still feel like I could sleep forever, and at this point...I think I'd prefer that.
Much along the lines of what Brian666 said, I'm feeling very alone right now. I know there are people who care, but they're few and far between, and the ratio of people that I care about to people that care about me is far from even.
It's extremely frustrating that so many people are all talk and no action; that they never live up to their words. I'm used to being kicked when I'm already down, so I've learned not to accept offers from people who claim to be my friends...
And that upsets me.
Shouldn't it be the other way around? Shouldn't I be able to depend on my friends as they know they can depend on me? Why the fuck are people so lame these days?
Maybe this is coming off like I expect things from people - I don't - all I'm saying is that when your friends are in need, you help them. Because that's what friends do...
It just seems like life is fucking me over.
What happened to karma? It seems like I give and give and I just get fucked over in return.
*Sigh*
All I want is a couch to sleep on and someone to hug me. Not for always, just for now...
I guess maybe it's that the whole issue with my mother is getting to me much more than I'd ever like to admit. If your mother doesn't love you...why would anyone else?
Bleh.
Anyway, today is my last day in this house (or in any house, really) for a while. As a result, I'll have super limited internet access (as in, limited to my cell phone...)
It's been nice, SGland...
On a totally unfuckingrelated note...
What the fuck is this?
As pretty as this girl may or mat not be, she is not SG material! No ink? Not one piercing?
Christ, these bastards reject me because I'm too fat, but allow playboy style crap like this in? I'm gonna start my own goddamned website...
Damn near everything in my life is just shit right now.
I hate being dramatic, but I know damn well that most of the time, I'm just that and I can't even help it.
I slept for almost 13 hours straight last night. I still feel like I could sleep forever, and at this point...I think I'd prefer that.
Much along the lines of what Brian666 said, I'm feeling very alone right now. I know there are people who care, but they're few and far between, and the ratio of people that I care about to people that care about me is far from even.
It's extremely frustrating that so many people are all talk and no action; that they never live up to their words. I'm used to being kicked when I'm already down, so I've learned not to accept offers from people who claim to be my friends...
And that upsets me.
Shouldn't it be the other way around? Shouldn't I be able to depend on my friends as they know they can depend on me? Why the fuck are people so lame these days?
Maybe this is coming off like I expect things from people - I don't - all I'm saying is that when your friends are in need, you help them. Because that's what friends do...
It just seems like life is fucking me over.
What happened to karma? It seems like I give and give and I just get fucked over in return.
*Sigh*
All I want is a couch to sleep on and someone to hug me. Not for always, just for now...
I guess maybe it's that the whole issue with my mother is getting to me much more than I'd ever like to admit. If your mother doesn't love you...why would anyone else?
Bleh.
Anyway, today is my last day in this house (or in any house, really) for a while. As a result, I'll have super limited internet access (as in, limited to my cell phone...)
It's been nice, SGland...
On a totally unfuckingrelated note...
What the fuck is this?
As pretty as this girl may or mat not be, she is not SG material! No ink? Not one piercing?
Christ, these bastards reject me because I'm too fat, but allow playboy style crap like this in? I'm gonna start my own goddamned website...
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I know she is no you, but she is rather pretty, i havnt got any tattoos or peircings but im still nice right?
I hope you feel better soon hunny, i miss you
xxxx