xevilxashleyx

Today has been a strange day...

The same boy that followed me to work the other day...followed me to work again today.
He seems nice enough, but come on, how weird is it that he followed me to work randomly? Aparently his name is Derek. He gave me his phone number, but I doubt I'll ever call it...

On a slightly weirder note, I found this on my desk when I got to work this morning:



I scribbled out the name and phone number for the guy's sanity...

Strange. Seriously.

Finally got around to talking to Justin. He brought me soup, because I'm super sick.
After a shitty week - drama with The Boy, crying, getting super sick, drama at home, blah blah blah...the soup was a super nice gesture and it made me smile lots.

So, after a conversation with the ever awesome Swanlee about my current situation, I've decided to let things go for a little longer, see where the go and how they unfold. It can only go one of two ways, soo...let's hope it's up, for my own sake, since I genuinly like this boy, and I've fallen...*gasp*...quite in love with him.

I just did my taxes this morning. Turns out my mother didn't claim me on her taxes, and so I get a refund instead of owing an assload of money.
Too bad I didn't know that 2 months ago, or I'd have that fucking money by now...and I'd already have my metalfest tickets.
Since The Boy doesn't want to go with me, I'm either going alone or..well, I'll be going alone no matter what, but I'll probably be meeting up with Justin and the rest of the Tewksbury crew, at least on saturday.

Ugh. I'm just in such a crappy mood because of drama with The Boy and my current insecurities with the whole situation. This is exactly why I hate relationships - they make me feel inferior to every other girl, and they make me terribly insecure. Bleh.

Is this normal? I don't know, since I don't talk to girls. All the ones around here suck.
If any of you are girls and you happen to not suck, I'd be interested in your opinion on the topic...
Actually, I'd be interested in everyone's opinion on the topic..

Bleh.

Do you even pay attention? Do you read this at all? Do you even really give a fuck?

Something tells me you don't...

Someone love me, because I just don't feel like the one person who should does...



I hate myself today.