xevilxashleyx

So...I just watched Lost in Translation. I love that movie...

And every time I see it, I just think about how amazing it is that people can have these little...I don't even know what to call them - flings? - whatever they are. But people have these little bursts of randomness with some completely awesome person and then...Bam. It's all over. Everything is forgotten. Or just dropped. Or something.

And it's not like this shit just happens in movies. I've experienced it first hand, and more than once.

Theres this Boy, and he'll remain nameless, since he's a member of this site...and we had a conversation one day about me and my "walls" and how I don't let people in because I don't want to get hurt, and I'll let the walls down when I find a person that's worth letting in, or some shit like that. I don't really remember...blah blah whatever...long story short: I gave it a try.

And you know what happened? It was all bullshit. He was the first person I "let in" in a looooong time, and it all went to shit. And maybe it was my own fault and whatever. Not that it was going anywhere, anyway, and not that I necessarily though it would, or even wanted it to...

I just wanted to be friends. One can never have too many friends, you know. But now, we're not even that, and it just seems like that happens with a lot of people. We hang out a few times and then...it goes away. I don't know if they forget about me and whatever we've done, but I don't forget about them...

I don't even know what my point is anymore. Did I even have one to begin with? I don't know...I'm sure I did, I just have to remember it. Until then:

Here's something else...

The other day, I read something somewhere about a boy who was meeting a girl [in real life] that he'd met online. And he was talking about how he always has to IM her first, and then she barely talks to him. And someone made the comment that maybe she just wasn't that interested, or maybe she was dealing with 100 other boys online, as well...and I thought: Is this how I come off, too? I rarely, if ever, IM people.

I guess I just assume that if you want to talk to me, you'll IM me or whatever. I know I know...it works both ways. You're probably thinking the same thing, and since I never IM you, you assume I don't want to talk to you...

Ugh...Girls are lame. Myself Included...maybe that was my point?

Whatever...