xchaosx

Have you ever had a thought pop into your head... a memory from a conversation past, maybe... that just nag-nag-nags the fuck out of you? But only when you're alone and not wanting to think about the negatives? I've been thinking about something said to me about a week ago and I can't get past it. Well... I can, somewhat... I can shove it aside and forget about it for a bit, but it always comes back up in the chaos of my fucked up thought process. I can't make myself bring it up in conversation. I don't want to talk about it to anyone.

I leave the company on Friday. My short and sweet notice is almost up. Good riddance to foul rubbish - I got tired of the endless compliments to my work ethic and my skills, but no job offer. They kept me temporary until I got tired of the game. So.... what have I done? Quit my job with no safety net? Fuck no. I'm not that stupid. I start a job with a local engineering firm next week... less than a week after they first received my resume'. Fuckin right, doggie. So... that part of life is going well...

But what of the rest? This shit will drive me mad. I think I'm halfway there. Just watch. So, I've a new job... Recent past, I got a new vehicle... I think I'm going to try a new, though similar, direction with my degree... What else of the past can I shed?

Perhaps part of my conscience when I do what I'm thinking next. Something just came to mind.