I am so on edge tonight. Something is wrong and I don't know what.
I've worked myself to a dull and witless state over the past three days, but I've gotten a lot accomplished and the job isn't half bad. Filing. A lot of filing. The people (barring one heinous bitch) have been great. The atmosphere is relaxed. And I can sort my filing while listening to the radio, sipping my jacked-up caffeine-bomb cappuccino, and chattering pleasantly with the girls who work nearby.
It's not anything that I want to do for the rest of my life, but it pays well and the potential for advancement is there. Asides, three days in and I've already made it known to one exec that I have skillz in IT, a fact that earned me a smile and the recommendation to apply for a tech position as soon as my initial 60 days is up.
Life is sunny and I'm in a horrid mood. What gives? I feel awful. I wasn't even all that friendly with Duke earlier, though I wasn't rude either... But I have to admit that I could've just laid in his arms for the rest of the evening and been quite fine. I just feel like butt and need something to keep me from wallowing in this horrid mood.
I think I'll go back to reading. I started a new crime novel yesterday and it's turning out to be a fair read. Think I'll make myself a chocolate-banana milkshake as well.
Wrinkle your nose at the 'ickiness,' sure, but precious few things in my little corner of the world can not be put into better perspective with a chocolate-banana milkshake.
I've worked myself to a dull and witless state over the past three days, but I've gotten a lot accomplished and the job isn't half bad. Filing. A lot of filing. The people (barring one heinous bitch) have been great. The atmosphere is relaxed. And I can sort my filing while listening to the radio, sipping my jacked-up caffeine-bomb cappuccino, and chattering pleasantly with the girls who work nearby.
It's not anything that I want to do for the rest of my life, but it pays well and the potential for advancement is there. Asides, three days in and I've already made it known to one exec that I have skillz in IT, a fact that earned me a smile and the recommendation to apply for a tech position as soon as my initial 60 days is up.
Life is sunny and I'm in a horrid mood. What gives? I feel awful. I wasn't even all that friendly with Duke earlier, though I wasn't rude either... But I have to admit that I could've just laid in his arms for the rest of the evening and been quite fine. I just feel like butt and need something to keep me from wallowing in this horrid mood.
I think I'll go back to reading. I started a new crime novel yesterday and it's turning out to be a fair read. Think I'll make myself a chocolate-banana milkshake as well.
Wrinkle your nose at the 'ickiness,' sure, but precious few things in my little corner of the world can not be put into better perspective with a chocolate-banana milkshake.
krypto2:
What aspect of life are you avoiding/putting off dealing with?
tyberius23:
I say close your eyes take a deep breath clear your mind. It alwase works for me, Im not a psycritrist or any thing but i do have a sum what of a stressfull job ( i work in ems ) and remeber a saying. this too shall pass (dont know who wrote it )