xbronzebeautyx

***Note to all, i'm drunk while writing this so feel free to punch me**

ok....i just got home from the bar....i'm super bummed

i'm not gonna see the boy tonight...ok here's the full story with us so you all know....

we don't go out....i don't exactly know what u would call us...but basically he doesn't kiss or eff anyone else and neither do i...we never really went into what we r but either way i'd rather have him in my life than get all technical ya know?

but im super in love...and it sucks...and he knows it and i won't ever give up on him...such a sucker i am

ok i'm almost in tears right now....i was soon as he sent me the text message back that i wasn't gonna see him tonight...yes partly because i was drinkin but still...sometimes i just need a good cry cauz i keep it all in..

ahhhh this is rough i told myself i wasn't gonna talk to him all weekend...but i miss the little fucker...hmm maybe i should rethink that...he's a big strong fucker....but seriously....

i just wish i saw him more....i know y i don't see him as much (im not goin into it) and i respect him and what he does...but i am fiercely loyal to this kid....like i could go out and do whatever i please with anyone i please....butttt i DON'T because in my eyes he deserves that respect..and i would rather be with him than ANYONE! its just killin me inside

punch me i know im pathetic...

i'm crazyyyy in love:::dangerously in love:::

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