i feel horrible for what i have done to ryan...but this is only for the best..i know if we would of stayed together it would of hurt him more because i would of just ended up pushing him away or cheating on him or something...i hope if he reads this he knows that i will always, fucking always love him with all my heart because...
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Last night was cool, shane and i watched lilo and stitch 
i love that movie! Anyway i should be getting my shoes today around 4:30, thank god i hate my old shoes! Other then that theres really nothing to write about so after i do do something interesting ill let you all know with an update.
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i love that movie! Anyway i should be getting my shoes today around 4:30, thank god i hate my old shoes! Other then that theres really nothing to write about so after i do do something interesting ill let you all know with an update.
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chaosmachine:
Never seen that one, yeah m-998'sare the best humvee's i get to drive them all the time....All the humvee license is is a peice of white paper......
scattershot:
new shoes eh? sounds good ... don't worry I don't have anything interesting to say either.
*sigh* another somewhat early start today when i didnt want it...people need to learn! anyways i should be getting my shoes tomorrow so thats a huge plus...and guess what? they have the SG colors on em! WOOO! lol. Me and shane went to Tower Records last night and he bought the Brand New cd and i copied it and its my new sleep cd 
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laid_to_rest:
i love 2 drink!!!!!!!!
chrislikewhoa:
Nice taste in music.
Atreyu is doing a show out here in NYC pretty soon I believe.
I just realized, so is FATA...hah.
Two shows i must see
[Edited on Aug 22, 2003]
Atreyu is doing a show out here in NYC pretty soon I believe.
I just realized, so is FATA...hah.
Two shows i must see
[Edited on Aug 22, 2003]
Today was a lot better then i thought it was..me and ryan are gonna try to work things out and so yeah..i dunno how thats gonna work though because we've done this once before and considering the main reason i wanted a break was because of his meds i dont think it will work very well because he wont stop taking them. But i will...
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scattershot:
okay some guns do look pretty sly .. and sometimes I can let my hatred of war and death slide .... I mean I wouldn't object to being able to shoot a gun either really .. as long as it was a target that was not alive.
but hey there are pics up of my new eyebrow ring, my new sunglasses and my pipe .. cuz I put that in for fun.. yay.
but hey there are pics up of my new eyebrow ring, my new sunglasses and my pipe .. cuz I put that in for fun.. yay.
hopesfall:
jay i really hope things work out for you two, and i am so very sorry for what i did to you this past week, i just hope that one day you can be super cool and forgive me
today is going to be the WORST day ever. 
We saw the western coast. I saw the hospital. Nurse the shoreline like a wound. We paint a lover's tryst. We're neither clear nor descript. We kept it safe and slow. The quiet things that no one ever knows. Keep the blood in your head and keep your feet on the ground. Today's the day it...
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We saw the western coast. I saw the hospital. Nurse the shoreline like a wound. We paint a lover's tryst. We're neither clear nor descript. We kept it safe and slow. The quiet things that no one ever knows. Keep the blood in your head and keep your feet on the ground. Today's the day it...
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scattershot:
the quiet things that no one ever knows by ... ... .... damn I forgot who sings that song... bah!!!
and I don't like guns for the reason that I am a pacifist and I don't understand their purpose... things like swords I can accept cuz there is an artistry and beauty to them but guns are more or less big ugly things meant to destroy a life.
and I don't like guns for the reason that I am a pacifist and I don't understand their purpose... things like swords I can accept cuz there is an artistry and beauty to them but guns are more or less big ugly things meant to destroy a life.
well i broke up with my long term b/f tonight...i never wanted to do it over the phone but he told me to say what i wanted to say so i did..we're gonna have a talk tomorrow and then yeah ill tell him everything...and maybe in the future we can go out again...but right now i need a break...so yeah. I still feel bad though....
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hopesfall:
We saw the western coast. I saw the hospital. Nurse the shoreline like a wound. We paint a lover's tryst. We're neither clear nor descript. We kept it safe and slow. The quiet things that no one ever knows. Keep the blood in your head and keep your feet on the ground. Today's the day it gets tired. Today's the day we drop down. Give up my body in bed. All for an empty hotel. Wasting words on lowercases and capitals. I contemplate the day we wed. Your friends are boring me to death. Your veil is ruined in the rain. By then you like to do without. There's nothing new to talk about. And though our kids are blessed, the parents let them shoulder all the blame. Keep the blood in your head and keep your feet on the ground. Today's the day it gets tired. Today's the day we drop down. Give up my body in bed. All for an empty hotel. Wasting words on lowercases and capitals. I lie for only you. And I lie well. Halleluh. Keep the blood in your head and keep your feet on the ground. Today's the day it gets tired. Today's
the day we drop down. Give up my body in bed. All for an empty hotel. Wasting words on lowercases and capitals.
the day we drop down. Give up my body in bed. All for an empty hotel. Wasting words on lowercases and capitals.
hopesfall:
yeah i put a fata song on here but it was the wrong one so yeah fuck
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today was pretty cool...well the last week has been pretty cool..but today i dyed my hair and its lookin good..i also told some people somethings and i dunno..seems like things might be getting better with this whole situation. i dont want this to come out in the wrong way but i think things are looking good for my side of this (crosses fingers)...i dunno though...
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scattershot:
one word: IjustgotmyeyebrowpiercedtodayI'llputpicsuptomrrow.cyalater.
drivemedead:
hmmm as tempting as that is, how about you come here first . . . . . . . .
well my stomach still feels empty constantly and ive lost 10 pounds in about 4 days lol. TOTALLY HEALTHY. I've also been getting less and less sleep..except yesterday i slept till noon..i was probably just really relaxed and felt some sort of peace of mind because of who i was around that day..some people have the weirdest effects on me lol. Like sometimes ill...
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scattershot:
I didn't sleep much either last night .... and I had a dream about an old flame which always sends me off into a weirdness for a while
it doesn't look like Im going to T.O to get my eyebrow peirced after-all ... I haven't heard from the people Im going with and I don't have either of their numbers but they have mine ... and time is ticking away.
it doesn't look like Im going to T.O to get my eyebrow peirced after-all ... I haven't heard from the people Im going with and I don't have either of their numbers but they have mine ... and time is ticking away.
chaosmachine:
i had like no sleep in four days, it's fun aint it 
so im sitting here thinking, why does shit like this ALWAYS happen to me? im gonna have ulcers after this whole ordeal (even though i never want it to end..)...but even so last night was extreamly nice and i havent felt like i did last night in a very long time. Other then that im gonna be bleaching my hair here in a second..and then...
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hopesfall:
Jay shit is going to work out and i am happy that last night was super cool for you
reagan:
holy shit! i never knew that Camry spells My Car. im so oblivious....
you kick ass!
you kick ass!
i just got back from this metal show...and i thought it was gonna be cool and stuff..but it wasnt that great...oh well..this one guy in one of the bands was wearing a thong and it was very tramatizing...so uhm yeah thats about it i guess for today.
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scattershot:
note to self ... cancel plans of wearing a thong on stage at first show in september.
drivemedead:
maybe you should just move to vegas
uhhhhhh if you always will love him why is there these problems going on. ... women are funny I love you with all my heart but I want someone else ... sooo fickle