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CHECK IT: new pics of me myself and I...crazy go nuts...

its almost 5 am, the sun is rising, and the birds already singing; i really need to vent.

I'm so tired of being "that girl thats cool to hang with, but nothing more", im sick of being everyones "friend", im disgusted by my "need" for affection...i HATE feeling like this...i feel like no one gives a FUCK about what im going through, or what im feeling, or that i need to just sit and have someone fucking hold me...im just "that girl" in the background of everything.
Every other person i know has someone they can run to, someone to confide in, someone to take their hand and say "don't worry, it will all work out", someone to encourage them, help them in their time of need, listen to them no matter what their talking about, wether its boys or school or whatever. This jelousy i have for my friends hugging one another is bullshit, i want to kill that emotion.
im lonely in a room filled with people, im hating everything on the inside but i know it doesnt show on my face. i try to be this strong person but sometimes i just cant fucking stand it.
I'm tired of feeling so alone...i tired of ASKING for hugs...im tired of life....blackeyedfrown

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Music: From Autumn To Ashes
Feeling: depressed

"oh why cant i be what you need?..."
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I am being a whore for the New England Metal Fest...yes so go watch the trailer for it, HERE

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Local Band of the Week: M.T.F.
VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
linz:
i love that picture! it is so cute!
Apr 4, 2004
mrsmead:
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*hug*hug*hug*

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Apr 4, 2004

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