White Feather Wings, Doused With Gasoline
a lot of stuff happened over the past two days that I am trying to deal with. I dont know if ill be able to. I can't write it all down, but it wouldn't help anyway. Ive stopped drinking and im going to take my medication everyday. Im not going to cut myself anymore. Ive made a promise, however hard to keep. there are other things im doing as well.
Ive never opened up to anyone. It has caused me a lot of trouble and ruined a good deal of things. About half a year ago......i finally began to talk to some one because I loved her more then i thought i could love anything. Now i feel like i need to talk but I still dont want to. Ive tried to get in touch with her, but people are busy.
I just dont know what to do about anything and it hurts to just sit here doing nothing. I never used to feel any of this shit, it was just nothing but its like as soon as you start to feel one thing you have to feel everything; just like when you start to talk, you have to keep on going...
And if the sun comes up will it tear the skin right off our bones
And then as razor sharp white teeth rip out our necks I saw you there
Someone call the doctor, someone get me to a church
Where they can pump this venom gaping hole
And you must keep your soul like a secret in your throat
And if they come and get me
You put the spike in my heart
"Vampires Will Never Hurt You" by My Chemical Romance
a lot of stuff happened over the past two days that I am trying to deal with. I dont know if ill be able to. I can't write it all down, but it wouldn't help anyway. Ive stopped drinking and im going to take my medication everyday. Im not going to cut myself anymore. Ive made a promise, however hard to keep. there are other things im doing as well.
Ive never opened up to anyone. It has caused me a lot of trouble and ruined a good deal of things. About half a year ago......i finally began to talk to some one because I loved her more then i thought i could love anything. Now i feel like i need to talk but I still dont want to. Ive tried to get in touch with her, but people are busy.
I just dont know what to do about anything and it hurts to just sit here doing nothing. I never used to feel any of this shit, it was just nothing but its like as soon as you start to feel one thing you have to feel everything; just like when you start to talk, you have to keep on going...
And if the sun comes up will it tear the skin right off our bones
And then as razor sharp white teeth rip out our necks I saw you there
Someone call the doctor, someone get me to a church
Where they can pump this venom gaping hole
And you must keep your soul like a secret in your throat
And if they come and get me
You put the spike in my heart
"Vampires Will Never Hurt You" by My Chemical Romance
Yeah, everything is better today, nice burn I got though.
Everyday is a struggle, but some recent events have helped to form a new opinion of her, I just want to get to the point of apathy.
What is your situation? I am much older so maybe you can learn from some of my fucked up past. Let me know.