xanotherdeadhero

ugh, this fucking spanish. I haven't even been there since I found out i was accepted to Mary Washington and I haven't been able to stop worrying about it since. Im worried that it will be either impossible to or close enough to impossible that I won't be able to get a "c" anymore. When i think about it logically, i should be able to becuase I have good attendance, have gone to all my labs, and have only fucked up on one of the three exams. The second is tomorrow, and i hope by the time it rolls around, ill be ready for it.
Its just with all the minor quizes that ive gotten horrible grades on, it puts a negative outlook on it. Well, I know there is no use worrying about it, but im going to worry anyway. Hopefully tomorrow I will have a more concrete idea of how and what im suppposed to do to make sure this screw me. if it't not already too late
Another thing is, if i can't make it, and they retract their acceptance, I'm out the $500 down payment that is nonrefundable.

and so tonight to celebrate i will poison myself.
another coughing, shaking fit in a bathroom that is spinning.
so i close the door and rest my head on the tile floor,
sickness and sleep turning me cold.
i am still not sure,
is there some better place i should be heading towards?
"Padriac My Prince" by Bright Eyes