I finally got out on my kayak today.
Also talked to the older lady that I am dating that I don't want to waste her time and told her I don't see her as a long term gf. She was ok with that and was on the same page. We talked about goiing the freind route but I had to confess how much I liked kissing her. So it seems I am back to where I was but without reason for guilt. Now to deal with the younger one. I don't like to kiss her. Shes just too sloppy and has to style or technique. Or maybe its because my face isn't a cock. Thats something I CANNOT complain about.
She is so not for me though. Even thought the sex is great. What the hell. Maybe I'll just keep going wiht the flow with her. Sad though she called me like 8 times this last weekend and we never got together. I think I may have still been annoyed and didn't want to be suduced.