So HAPPY FEET can be described in one word: ABSOFRIGGINSUPERGREATLYMADEANDOTHERSTUFF!!!!!
I haven't had goosebumps going into a movie since DA VINCI CODE (i know, not that many people liked DVC, but i had been waiting to see that movie for at least a year) and this movie certainly did not dissapoint. The sweeping camera moves, the comedy, the love story, and the dancing, MY GOD...
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I haven't had goosebumps going into a movie since DA VINCI CODE (i know, not that many people liked DVC, but i had been waiting to see that movie for at least a year) and this movie certainly did not dissapoint. The sweeping camera moves, the comedy, the love story, and the dancing, MY GOD...
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What i'd really like to say before I begin my rant is this........MY SISTER IS A DIRTY-ASS, FUCKING, LAZY, FATASS, TRIPLE-CHIN HAVING BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My sister just received a house through the government. Mainly because she doesn't have a job, she has a child, and no father in the picture. I helped her bitch-ass move into the place, and the second that I have placed all...
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My sister just received a house through the government. Mainly because she doesn't have a job, she has a child, and no father in the picture. I helped her bitch-ass move into the place, and the second that I have placed all...
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cairo:
Yikes, dude!
That fucking sucks.
That fucking sucks.
Been feeling kinda blah lately.
Not quite sure whats causing it, and I need to do something fun.........SOON.
time to go get some sleep.
Not quite sure whats causing it, and I need to do something fun.........SOON.
time to go get some sleep.
So, I sent back the T-Mobile MDA and sent for a Motorola RAZR.
Although I will miss the QWERTY keyboard, I felt as though I need a minimalist phone.
When looking for this phone, i wanted the following:
1. Sleek gray or black design.
2. Quad-Band/World Phone
3. Picture/Video
4. Full Color
5. Large Screen
Easily enough, the RAZR had that, and it was staring...
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Although I will miss the QWERTY keyboard, I felt as though I need a minimalist phone.
When looking for this phone, i wanted the following:
1. Sleek gray or black design.
2. Quad-Band/World Phone
3. Picture/Video
4. Full Color
5. Large Screen
Easily enough, the RAZR had that, and it was staring...
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There is this bitch at my job that works at the Service Desk named Karen.
If i could get away with it, not only would I slap her..........i would fire her.
Whores like that, need to be put in their place.
edit: Just realized the fact that they changed the SG logo to a girlish skeleton head.............i like it.
2nd edit: "My Love" by Justin...
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If i could get away with it, not only would I slap her..........i would fire her.
Whores like that, need to be put in their place.
edit: Just realized the fact that they changed the SG logo to a girlish skeleton head.............i like it.
2nd edit: "My Love" by Justin...
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notthellama:
Karen is always a bag of douche!
poeticdesires:
it wasn't luck. it's my mother's old number and she chose it because it would be easy to remember. now i get the ease.
So my very first Costume Party is this coming Friday. I had been racking my brain as to what the hell I would go as. i thought of being a mad scientist, cowboy, Blade, nurse, scary Home Depot employee...........the list goes on and on. I finally decided to go to Party City and i found this cool black costume. It kinda looks like the scary...
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cairo:
I miss you.
guess who is going to the SG Burlesque Show coming up?
that's right, not me.........
the main reason why I am not going is because they have the same person from last year...........though i do like rockin' japanese chicks..........i have seen them before, so the "meet the new j-rock band Tsushimamire' feeling is sorrowfully over. another reason im not going is because cairo and halfjack...
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that's right, not me.........
the main reason why I am not going is because they have the same person from last year...........though i do like rockin' japanese chicks..........i have seen them before, so the "meet the new j-rock band Tsushimamire' feeling is sorrowfully over. another reason im not going is because cairo and halfjack...
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quietlythere:
sorry to hear about your tooth
Trying to not take my cell phone and throw it up against the wall. Maybe seeing it shatter into a couple of pieces REALLY wouldn't be that bad, right?
I have had to replace my Sidekick 2 twice already, i am NOT replacing it another time. Just today it started to not pick up the SIM card again. Normally i would wait about 2 days...
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I have had to replace my Sidekick 2 twice already, i am NOT replacing it another time. Just today it started to not pick up the SIM card again. Normally i would wait about 2 days...
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cairo:
Despite what some fundamentalist wackos have indoctrinated into you, gay sex is not dirty or unclean. You feel that way because you feel guilty, and you feel guilty because it's been battered into your head that you're supposed to feel guilty. I used to feel that way about tons of shit (pre-marital sex, lesbianism, bdsm), until I recognized my guilt for what it was and figured my own way through everything instead of relying on other people to tell me the "truth." Now I'm happier than I've ever been in my entire life, with being who I am instead of trying to be who other people tell me I should be.
I know how your mom is, and I can't imagine how the things she's said on this particular subject would have affected you while you were growing up. It sucks. Whatever your thought process now, I hope you got there by honestly reviewing your beliefs and thought processes instead of relying on what's been told to you. That is the only way you're going to be happy, is if you trust and love yourself enough to make your own decisions about your beliefs.
That's all I've got to say. Well, not really, but there's no point in me saying anything more.
I know how your mom is, and I can't imagine how the things she's said on this particular subject would have affected you while you were growing up. It sucks. Whatever your thought process now, I hope you got there by honestly reviewing your beliefs and thought processes instead of relying on what's been told to you. That is the only way you're going to be happy, is if you trust and love yourself enough to make your own decisions about your beliefs.
That's all I've got to say. Well, not really, but there's no point in me saying anything more.
tigerwong:
Yeah, what she said.
It wasn't until i left my house/family/church that i got a chance to look at my life thru my own eyes. I had to find my own path, and not rely on what i was told was the right path for me, because the only one who knows what the right path is, is God, and only he can tell you. Not your mother, father or anyone else in your life. They can only give you ideas, no matter what tey say to you. In the end you have to evaluate everything and decide what is truly right for you.
Any decision i make now, i make because i truly feel that it is the RIGHT decision for me; i think and pray about everything. If i still don't quite feel at peace then i will talk to someone about it just to make sure i covered all of my bases, but that's it.
I think that you need to get away from everyone, most especially anyone who you eel has had any kind of power over you, and you need to to really be honest with yourself about how you feel. If you don't want to be gay SIMPLY because of how other people look at you, you're relying on external validation. Depending on who you ask, External Validation is the name of a demon. Whether you believe that or not, please be aware of the fact that other people cannot tell you who you are or who you should be. They did not make you. Your mother carried you and birthed you, but she did NOT create you, and thus has no right or authority to tell you who you are or what you ought to be. Neither does any other person. Only the Creator (whoever you believe him/her to be) can tell you, and the Creator is the only one you should be asking. If what other people say happen to line up with what you hear from God, then that's just confirmation, but otherwise it carries no weight.
All this being said, i feel that the biggest things that the devil uses (and i know i'm speaking in christian terms here, but it's what i've got, and i bet you can relate to them), to keep people from being everything that they can be, are fear, self hatred and external validation. Each of these things go hand in hand, because self hatred leads to the need for external validation, and fear (that you're not doing the right thing, for example) comes from the extranal validation that you may not be getting, which leads to more self hatred, because if you're not being validated, you must be doing something wrong. That becomes a vicious cycle that is a self destructive thought process, and trust me, you don't want to get locked into it. It will stifle you, and your personal growth will be stunted, no matter how much you may progress otherwise.
Think about it. Let's say that you go on to get married and have three wonderful healthy children. If that's what you truly, in your heart of hearts, want and need out of life, than that's wonderful. But if this becomes your reality and the only reason that it's so is because you didn't want to be made fun of for being gay, then that will haunt you.
I have an acquaintance who was a very prominent figure in the animation community. He was one of the first people to ever get a work visa for animation in japan, and he's one of the only people to become as successful as he did: he's written some of the more successful anime movies and OAV's from the late 80's and early 90's. He created one of the first major animation specific computer software programs which inspired so many others. He shmoozed with celebrities in american and japan, had a lovely wife, a heavy bank account, and over all, a very good life. But he partied hard. Drank heavily. Did a lot of drugs. Eventually tried to kill himself. He failed, but in failing he had a realization that he wasn't being true to himself.
After undergoing psycholgical examinations, he came to the realization that his whol life was a lie. Te doctors identified the problem: gender identity disorder. Turns out that he'd wanted to play with dolls and do feminine things as a child and his parents were so against it that they FORCED him to do "boy" things. From age 2 or 3 he'd been forced to be very "manly" and this was all suppressed. this made him into a workoholic, and success was the only thing that mattered to him because he HAD to prove his worthiness to his parents. This of course, took it's toll. After the diagnosis, and his wn coming to terms with it, he's led a very clean life, his body's the healthiest it's ever been and he's been transitioning for the last four years, and being true to himself, identifying as a woman. Currently she's saving up for the surgery, and is WAY happier. Interestingly, also, she's not attracted to men. She has a live-in girlfriend. *shrug*
Anyway, the point: it's not until you really come to grips with why you truly feel the way you feel that you can begin to make life decisions such as what you've said so far. I remember asking you before if you'd ever actually been in love with a man. You told me no. That could meanany number of things, but you'll have to examine all of that for yourself. It's your life and you live it how you want and be happy. It is my hope that you'll do so based on decisions that are truly what you want. Of course, that, for most people is the definition of a truly happy life.
Soory that was so long. Take it for what you think it's worth.
It wasn't until i left my house/family/church that i got a chance to look at my life thru my own eyes. I had to find my own path, and not rely on what i was told was the right path for me, because the only one who knows what the right path is, is God, and only he can tell you. Not your mother, father or anyone else in your life. They can only give you ideas, no matter what tey say to you. In the end you have to evaluate everything and decide what is truly right for you.
Any decision i make now, i make because i truly feel that it is the RIGHT decision for me; i think and pray about everything. If i still don't quite feel at peace then i will talk to someone about it just to make sure i covered all of my bases, but that's it.
I think that you need to get away from everyone, most especially anyone who you eel has had any kind of power over you, and you need to to really be honest with yourself about how you feel. If you don't want to be gay SIMPLY because of how other people look at you, you're relying on external validation. Depending on who you ask, External Validation is the name of a demon. Whether you believe that or not, please be aware of the fact that other people cannot tell you who you are or who you should be. They did not make you. Your mother carried you and birthed you, but she did NOT create you, and thus has no right or authority to tell you who you are or what you ought to be. Neither does any other person. Only the Creator (whoever you believe him/her to be) can tell you, and the Creator is the only one you should be asking. If what other people say happen to line up with what you hear from God, then that's just confirmation, but otherwise it carries no weight.
All this being said, i feel that the biggest things that the devil uses (and i know i'm speaking in christian terms here, but it's what i've got, and i bet you can relate to them), to keep people from being everything that they can be, are fear, self hatred and external validation. Each of these things go hand in hand, because self hatred leads to the need for external validation, and fear (that you're not doing the right thing, for example) comes from the extranal validation that you may not be getting, which leads to more self hatred, because if you're not being validated, you must be doing something wrong. That becomes a vicious cycle that is a self destructive thought process, and trust me, you don't want to get locked into it. It will stifle you, and your personal growth will be stunted, no matter how much you may progress otherwise.
Think about it. Let's say that you go on to get married and have three wonderful healthy children. If that's what you truly, in your heart of hearts, want and need out of life, than that's wonderful. But if this becomes your reality and the only reason that it's so is because you didn't want to be made fun of for being gay, then that will haunt you.
I have an acquaintance who was a very prominent figure in the animation community. He was one of the first people to ever get a work visa for animation in japan, and he's one of the only people to become as successful as he did: he's written some of the more successful anime movies and OAV's from the late 80's and early 90's. He created one of the first major animation specific computer software programs which inspired so many others. He shmoozed with celebrities in american and japan, had a lovely wife, a heavy bank account, and over all, a very good life. But he partied hard. Drank heavily. Did a lot of drugs. Eventually tried to kill himself. He failed, but in failing he had a realization that he wasn't being true to himself.
After undergoing psycholgical examinations, he came to the realization that his whol life was a lie. Te doctors identified the problem: gender identity disorder. Turns out that he'd wanted to play with dolls and do feminine things as a child and his parents were so against it that they FORCED him to do "boy" things. From age 2 or 3 he'd been forced to be very "manly" and this was all suppressed. this made him into a workoholic, and success was the only thing that mattered to him because he HAD to prove his worthiness to his parents. This of course, took it's toll. After the diagnosis, and his wn coming to terms with it, he's led a very clean life, his body's the healthiest it's ever been and he's been transitioning for the last four years, and being true to himself, identifying as a woman. Currently she's saving up for the surgery, and is WAY happier. Interestingly, also, she's not attracted to men. She has a live-in girlfriend. *shrug*
Anyway, the point: it's not until you really come to grips with why you truly feel the way you feel that you can begin to make life decisions such as what you've said so far. I remember asking you before if you'd ever actually been in love with a man. You told me no. That could meanany number of things, but you'll have to examine all of that for yourself. It's your life and you live it how you want and be happy. It is my hope that you'll do so based on decisions that are truly what you want. Of course, that, for most people is the definition of a truly happy life.
Soory that was so long. Take it for what you think it's worth.
For the past week my upper molar has been friggin killing me, but i haven't had any days off as of yet, until tomorrow. I have to go and get it checked out, so that I can find out if it needs to be pulled or whatever. Either way i know that its gonna hurt, and i hate going to the dentist. Ever since i...
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cairo:
There was no wedding. You think I'd gett married and not invite you to the wedding? We just went to the courthouse and did the thing with a judge. The wedding is not until August 2008.
Lately something has been nagging at me.
I'm utterly sick and tired of working at my current job, mainly because its so menial, and annoying. As a head cashier, im supervising all of the other cashiers currently on line during a given shift. That means that I can get numerous calls from all ends of the building.......garden, lumber, front end, service desk, etc., and so...
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I'm utterly sick and tired of working at my current job, mainly because its so menial, and annoying. As a head cashier, im supervising all of the other cashiers currently on line during a given shift. That means that I can get numerous calls from all ends of the building.......garden, lumber, front end, service desk, etc., and so...
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halfjack:
i didn't mind. it made it seem like a lot of people were writing to me, or that you really meant what you said.
also, they are usually more grey than anything. sometimes green. but blue when it's sunny.
also, you know when i was working full time at target i was going to school. it's doable. it's just tough. you gotta be light on sleep and heavy on all free time to do homework
also, they are usually more grey than anything. sometimes green. but blue when it's sunny.
also, you know when i was working full time at target i was going to school. it's doable. it's just tough. you gotta be light on sleep and heavy on all free time to do homework
halfjack:
photography and sign language