xanderknight

So.......another year nearly gone. Out with the old, in with the new. Speaking of new, I'm tired of being with guys at the moment. Its nothing but the same damn routine.......I come over their place, we make whoopee, and then I leave.......not necessarily love, just temporary lust. Can't take them with me, because I'd be utterly embarassed being with a guy ROMANTICALLY in public. I also do not want my family to know, and I'm tired of making lies and shit like that. The main reason why I became gay is because no girl (other than in high school, which doesn't count) has shown interest in me, maybe cuz I'm not the most athletic, or just a plain geek. and with guys.......sex just came VERY easily.

Mind you, I said that no girl has been attracted to me...........That is until yesterday..........

A girl that I work with, has been attracted to me since I first started at the job. And has also been pretty much offering herself to me for SEX. In her words, "I was offering you pussy on a silver platter SO BLATANTLY, and you just didn't catch my drift." That hasn't happened before, and I was seriously taken aback. To the point that I was thinking, "Why me? What is attractive about me?" Not only that, here recently I have been dreaming about sex with women, and enjoying it!!

Normally I go out of my way for gay sex.........and its been at least a month since that has happened..........not because I can't get it, just because I don't want it.

I'm not quite sure as to what this means.......maybe I've hit a dry spell, or whatever. I've never had a want for women, and now that I do...........I'm not sure what to do.............I'm sounding very contradictory I'm sure of it, just confused right now.........any ideas?