xanderj

The nightmares have returned and I am now affected by the same insomnia that kept me awake for days last time. I thought I had handled this shit when I came back from Iraq and yet these images keep returning. I think it has to do with the fact that my brother and some of my friends have just headed back over for another deployment and I am stuck in limbo here doing absolutely nothing. All these things I cannot change keep me from what I need, sleep. Maybe when I go back I will return to my centered state of mind because I will be helping again instead of sitting docile on the side not being able to do anything but watch. I have a hard time falling asleep because I can't stop thinking and when I finally do slip into unconsciousness I am faced by an ambush of ghastly sights and images that bring me back to a state of alertness covered in cold sweat. Maybe if I just tell someone the things I saw and think I could finally get some sleep.