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i feel so confused about life at the moment.

so many decisions......so little energy.

i want to crawl into bed....and stay there for a few days.



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nikonphoto80:
Whats going on? anything I can do?
lil_em:
I found it a little more this morning thank you sweetie - I was up at a half decent time and came into work for about 11 which is ace for me!

Gonna get on with some work right now but wanted to say hi first. You know if you ever need a chat, you can always give me a missed call. I get 300 minutes free every month and I'd love to speak to you at some point! I hate it when my friends are upset and confused and I want to help.

Love you loads

xx
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louis is fine....panic over....i think he has forgiven me blush

the healthy eating is going good....and im making an effort to try to be more active every day too, even it just means less sitting on my arse!

i didnt do the weigh in cos im gonna do it at the end of this week....well we started the new plan on sunday, so i will weigh...
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darqkloud:
Hope you and yours are doing well.
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contessla:
Omg, they are good, how the hell are you and your family? Right before I left you had your son! Man, my little girl is already 6 months old! Time is flying by...I'm glad to be back...Hope everything is well for you.

ps- you are looking better than ever.
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im bad mother frown

louis was cranky so i started doing some stuff to cheer him up...it was working...i was messing about with brians old torch from when he was a copper, its a really heavy one, and its huge. i was messing about lighting my face, and louis was laughing.....then i dropped it by accident and it landed on his head.

the guilt i felt...
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beestealer:
Babes are soft and spongy for good reason tongue ... I used to have a bunk bed as a tot (space thing). My brother wet, so I had to live on top. I would routinely fall off... and stay asleep, or chicken dive off for kicks..... I'm just fine... *eyes tick alternately*.
revelation:
It's only an accident, and now you have your lesson learned: don't play with heavy stuff around your son smile

One thing I've learn about kids is: if they don't see you worried, they don't cry, only if it really hurts. If they were crying only because they got scared, if you look at them just curios, and not worried, they usually stop. Is a good way to see if they got scared or hurt.

I don't have kids myself but I've taken care of a lot of them, loads of times...
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hey all


we went food shopping today and we got all the stuff for our new diet plan...well....not a diet as such...more a eat healthy and be more active plan.

we bought pedomiters and we are gonna challenge each other to walk more steps then each other each day....i defo want to win!

im so determined to be who i really am, and not who...
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victoriasponge:
pedometers are wierd. i had one once and i never realised how many steps i take in a day. crazy. i hope the weigh in goes ok x
rdpixie:
Remember that you need to make eating changes for life not just to lose weight in the short term. And remember to treat yourself with something every now and again too!!!

I'm gonna weigh myself tomorrow too - lets see how we're getting on! Agghhh!
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tattoo_kitten:
amazon link to the book!

and thanks!!

Your baby is growing so fast and he's getting more uper duper adorable every day!
8bitbones:
cheers mate! i added a few more check them out
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ok so its weigh in time!!!!!!

at my last weigh in i weight 16 stone 10 lbs ( 234 lbs)

at my weigh in today i weigh 16 stone 7 lbs ( 231 lbs)

this weeks weight loss : 3 lbs


im happy with that....its a good start smile long way to go though!!
anyone else manage to lose any?



ive been full of a cold...
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nikonphoto80:
i think 3 lbs in one week is pretty damn good, go you biggrin

Im sorry you have been sick, Im glad you are feeling better, I really hope the little one will not get sick.

Im glad the little one is doing well.

violently:
dude, three lbs in a week is awesome! congrats lady smile
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thankyou for all the encouragement and support.
when you have those two things in your time of need, you really cant go wrong.

i shall keep you all updated on my progress!


i have a cold, and im feeling so miserable lately.....my family life just upsets me so much. im 26 and it hasnt ever gotten any easier than heartbreakingly hard. i wonder sometimes if...
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tymelesseq:
I completely agree about the room thing.


i hope your feeling better.
beestealer:
I want to steal your child in it's adorable t-shirt. He's got such a sweet Aryan face, butter wouldn't melt tongue .
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hope you all had a nice christmas smile

now that things with louis have calmed down and im getting more and more used to having him around and being a mother....its time to shape up!
im starting a mission to lose some weight. ive got no exuses...... i have been told that if i dont loose weight, my chance of becoming properly diabetic is hightened greatly.....and...
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nikonphoto80:
i hope you had a good Christmas to.

wow, it sounds like you need to lose wait for your health, I hear being diabetic is really tuff. Good luck, I know you can do it, you are strong, just try and you will do great.

good luck, I know you can do this.


beestealer:
Walking is always the best way... if you have to get 3 things from upstairs, get them one at a time etc... Walking burns calories but doesn't work muscle like gym work. It's how I stay slim, lol, well the stairs thing is mostly because I'm so scatter brained. But i'll walk to the 3rd corner shop away if I've had a calories rich meal and the like... oh... and figgiting, burns a hell of a lot more than you'd think. smile
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so its christmas eve....hard to think that this time 2 years ago i was pregnant and thinking about the future.....

....that future dissapeared in the evening of christmas day. 2 years ago tommorow.


i have a different future now......thats not so say i dont still think about the previous one, with all the what ifs....because i do.


its not very merry for me yet....it wont...
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lior:
I think you're beautiful kiss
nikonphoto80:
You should never forget and I know you wont, but at the same time you should be happy, I'm sure your little angel is watching over you trying to help you heal. I hope your Christmas was as good as it could be considering everything.
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they are back smile

biggrin biggrin biggrin biggrin
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ferretbite:
It took me a few seconds to get that.
nikonphoto80:
Thats really sad, Im not sure about the whole thing, I think it is possible that it does happen, but I would think after they did about 10 exorcisms that I would come to believe that it was all in her head, but I dont know the whole story so I cant be 100% sure if it was real or not.

i'm glad they are back now. smile