xalicex

well i went, and they were amazing as always, and i guess i felt better in the end......apart from my mum.

she knows that me and brian are super super low on cash, i mean neither of us have a job, and my maternity allowance has just rant out, so we are living off 60 a week jobseekers allowance, untill i get put on brians claim, and even then, it wont be much more than that, we have to let brians mum and dad help us when they can and it sucks....

my sister has never been so hard up for cash like we are right now, her husband has a pretty good job with great pay.

the convo went like this...

mum - veronique (my sis) ill buy you a shirt tonight, what kind would you like, what sorta style?

my sis- let alice choose, we have the same taste

gemma ( my friend who went also, cos my sis said she didnt feel up to going so she gave gemma her ticket)- let me buy you a shirt instead seeing as you wont let me pay for the ticket

me(kind of in jest)- oh so does that mean you will buy me a shirt now mum?

mum- depends.....dont knwo how much i have on me....im not sure......i dont know alice.


she said it as though it was a sin to spend any money on me......i mean i dont really care about money or having a shirt......but it was the fact that not only does she think im not worthy of such a gift when my sister clearly is....but she did it in front of everyone.

no body can see how crap she makes me feel though.....people think shes really nice to me.


blah,,,,ive still been doing my excersise every morning...30 mins every morning, 45 if i feel up to it....its a good way to kickstart the day.