so... a real update? yeah why not.
things are still going slow with the girl from work i've been talking to. in case anyone reading doesnt know the background on that situation... theres a girl at work i started talking to via email at work, she is also friends with my friend and his wife, so we all have lunch occasionally. i've gone out with her three times, only once where it was just the two of us though. the only thing is she is married, but separated, and has two kids. she is planning a divorce, but doesnt have the money for lawyers and all that now. so she just wants to be friends. which sucks... but what can you do. anyway, we went out a fews weeks ago, just us, saw mr and mrs smith and got some dinner, then just hung out and talked, it was good. some awkwardness when we talked in the days after it though, mostly her telling me how she can only be just friends right now. whatever, i dont know that just kinda bugs me. its like i have to pretend i dont like her more than i do. anyway... the weekend after that we went out my friend and his wife, went bowling and then hung out at their house. bowling sucked, it was cosmic bowling, which means a bunch of young punks just fucking around, not like i'm some pro bowler or something, but i'm used to just bowling and like watching out not to cut off the people next to me and stuff, and i think i was the only one doing that that night, it was just annoying. and when we hung out at their house we played the men are from mars women are from venus game.... this game sucks ass. thats all i can say for it. its like all these relationship questions and questions about your partner and stuff.... well guess what, i dont have one, so how can i answer those? and there were so many i didnt feel comfortable answering, and the same for her... meanwhile my friends are married to they have answers to most the questions... but yeah... it just sucked. so this saturday i asked her is she was doing anything and she said no, so she was gonna come over and watch a movie.... then when we talked on saturday during the day she tells me that she forgot that she made plans to hang out with my friends wife and the four of us should go out instead. so we did. i dont like doing that though, its like we're hanging out as two couples when she has already beaten me over the head with the fact that we cant be a couple right now. and its just hard cuz its like i'm still getting to know this girl and thats hard in a group of people. not to mention my friend and his wife were not in the best of moods and were kind of fighting most of th night. so we went to the movies and saw bewitched. it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. will ferrell made the movie though. if not for him it wouldve sucked bad. we went back to their place again after and just watched tv for a bit, then Sheila (dont think i mentioned her name til now
) decided to leave. i stayed maybe a half hour later and was gonna leave, then she came back... by this time it was just me and my friend watching tv, his wife had gone to the bedroom... so when sheila came back she just barely said hi and went to the bedroom with her... and who knows what they were talking about. so i left a few minutes after that. its just a weird situation.
and its gets more difficult. so my friend and i talking about the whole thing of me and her just being friends right now and he tells me how its kinda not fair that i should have to wait it out for her to maybe want to be more than friends once her divorce is final. and if something else comes along in the meantime i should go for it. i kind of agree, but then i dont want to be a dick and piss her off and start seeing other girls even though it seems like i should be able to since we are just friends, but i just have this feeling it would bother her, but i dont know. anyway... so i think i've mentioned before another girl at work who i have had a crush on since i started working there. she is a beautiful blonde who always just seemed so unattainable to me. but i guess she has talked to my same friend about me a few times... basically she thinks i dont like her and i dont think she likes me... its weird, i cant really get into that whole thing now.... as this is already WAY longer than i expected. but i guess Erin (the hot blonde) saw my friend (Rob) and Sheila at lunch one day and Erin joked to him "oh, is that youre girlfriend?" cuz she knows he is married. and his response was "well no, but Doug is talking to her" and he then told her the situation about her divorce and just being friends. she emailed him maybe a week later and asked how things were going with us, not sure exactly what he told her, but from what he did tell me, she stills thinks i dont like her for some reason, and he doesnt come right out and say that i do, but he tells her "well he doesnt not like you" and of course he tells me all this, some days forwards me what she sends him. sneaky and dirty? yes, but i need all the help i can get
so after all this i just told him, hey, next time she comes at you with all this and says i dont like her, just say hey, do you like him? so who knows what will happen. both girls are extremely attractive and i would definately be over achieving if i had either one of them. but Erin is a better situation just because she isnt married and has no kids and i dont have to wait and be just friends for god knows how long. but at the same time i would feel really about pursuing anything with her while still being "just friends" with Sheila.
and then on top of all that i still have the uncertainty of my health. chances are i dont have anything except the Lichen Planus, which isnt contagious, just makes my dick look sort of bruised right now, but it should go away evenutually, but could take like a year or more. theres a lot of uncertainty with it. but it does look better now than it did a few months ago, so maybe things are improving. but lets just say i was getting somewhere serious with either of these girls and i had to explain that whole situation of how i thought i had something and they tested me and i dont, but i do have LP which is really harmless and just some type of allergic reaction. i guess thats the best way to describe it. but i wouldnt blame anyone for being freaked out by it, i know i was. and even though i was tested for a bunch of STD's and they all came back ok, some people have told me that i was tested too soon, and they couldve been false negatives. always something to make me worry.
ok, so that was very VERY long. sorry about that, guess i had more on my mind than i thought. the more i think about it, maybe i should stick to waiting things out with Sheila, maybe by the time her divorce is final, my LP will have cleared up, i'll get more tests done, and it should be plently long enough to get accurate results. and who knows what would happen with Erin anyway, for all i know she may not be interested at all.
but with my luck, Erin doesnt want anything to do with me, and i'll wait it out with Sheila and she wont want to be more than just friends, and just for good measure, the LP wont clear up and i'll test positive for something. that would be very fitting.
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things are still going slow with the girl from work i've been talking to. in case anyone reading doesnt know the background on that situation... theres a girl at work i started talking to via email at work, she is also friends with my friend and his wife, so we all have lunch occasionally. i've gone out with her three times, only once where it was just the two of us though. the only thing is she is married, but separated, and has two kids. she is planning a divorce, but doesnt have the money for lawyers and all that now. so she just wants to be friends. which sucks... but what can you do. anyway, we went out a fews weeks ago, just us, saw mr and mrs smith and got some dinner, then just hung out and talked, it was good. some awkwardness when we talked in the days after it though, mostly her telling me how she can only be just friends right now. whatever, i dont know that just kinda bugs me. its like i have to pretend i dont like her more than i do. anyway... the weekend after that we went out my friend and his wife, went bowling and then hung out at their house. bowling sucked, it was cosmic bowling, which means a bunch of young punks just fucking around, not like i'm some pro bowler or something, but i'm used to just bowling and like watching out not to cut off the people next to me and stuff, and i think i was the only one doing that that night, it was just annoying. and when we hung out at their house we played the men are from mars women are from venus game.... this game sucks ass. thats all i can say for it. its like all these relationship questions and questions about your partner and stuff.... well guess what, i dont have one, so how can i answer those? and there were so many i didnt feel comfortable answering, and the same for her... meanwhile my friends are married to they have answers to most the questions... but yeah... it just sucked. so this saturday i asked her is she was doing anything and she said no, so she was gonna come over and watch a movie.... then when we talked on saturday during the day she tells me that she forgot that she made plans to hang out with my friends wife and the four of us should go out instead. so we did. i dont like doing that though, its like we're hanging out as two couples when she has already beaten me over the head with the fact that we cant be a couple right now. and its just hard cuz its like i'm still getting to know this girl and thats hard in a group of people. not to mention my friend and his wife were not in the best of moods and were kind of fighting most of th night. so we went to the movies and saw bewitched. it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. will ferrell made the movie though. if not for him it wouldve sucked bad. we went back to their place again after and just watched tv for a bit, then Sheila (dont think i mentioned her name til now
) decided to leave. i stayed maybe a half hour later and was gonna leave, then she came back... by this time it was just me and my friend watching tv, his wife had gone to the bedroom... so when sheila came back she just barely said hi and went to the bedroom with her... and who knows what they were talking about. so i left a few minutes after that. its just a weird situation.
and its gets more difficult. so my friend and i talking about the whole thing of me and her just being friends right now and he tells me how its kinda not fair that i should have to wait it out for her to maybe want to be more than friends once her divorce is final. and if something else comes along in the meantime i should go for it. i kind of agree, but then i dont want to be a dick and piss her off and start seeing other girls even though it seems like i should be able to since we are just friends, but i just have this feeling it would bother her, but i dont know. anyway... so i think i've mentioned before another girl at work who i have had a crush on since i started working there. she is a beautiful blonde who always just seemed so unattainable to me. but i guess she has talked to my same friend about me a few times... basically she thinks i dont like her and i dont think she likes me... its weird, i cant really get into that whole thing now.... as this is already WAY longer than i expected. but i guess Erin (the hot blonde) saw my friend (Rob) and Sheila at lunch one day and Erin joked to him "oh, is that youre girlfriend?" cuz she knows he is married. and his response was "well no, but Doug is talking to her" and he then told her the situation about her divorce and just being friends. she emailed him maybe a week later and asked how things were going with us, not sure exactly what he told her, but from what he did tell me, she stills thinks i dont like her for some reason, and he doesnt come right out and say that i do, but he tells her "well he doesnt not like you" and of course he tells me all this, some days forwards me what she sends him. sneaky and dirty? yes, but i need all the help i can get
so after all this i just told him, hey, next time she comes at you with all this and says i dont like her, just say hey, do you like him? so who knows what will happen. both girls are extremely attractive and i would definately be over achieving if i had either one of them. but Erin is a better situation just because she isnt married and has no kids and i dont have to wait and be just friends for god knows how long. but at the same time i would feel really about pursuing anything with her while still being "just friends" with Sheila.
and then on top of all that i still have the uncertainty of my health. chances are i dont have anything except the Lichen Planus, which isnt contagious, just makes my dick look sort of bruised right now, but it should go away evenutually, but could take like a year or more. theres a lot of uncertainty with it. but it does look better now than it did a few months ago, so maybe things are improving. but lets just say i was getting somewhere serious with either of these girls and i had to explain that whole situation of how i thought i had something and they tested me and i dont, but i do have LP which is really harmless and just some type of allergic reaction. i guess thats the best way to describe it. but i wouldnt blame anyone for being freaked out by it, i know i was. and even though i was tested for a bunch of STD's and they all came back ok, some people have told me that i was tested too soon, and they couldve been false negatives. always something to make me worry.
ok, so that was very VERY long. sorry about that, guess i had more on my mind than i thought. the more i think about it, maybe i should stick to waiting things out with Sheila, maybe by the time her divorce is final, my LP will have cleared up, i'll get more tests done, and it should be plently long enough to get accurate results. and who knows what would happen with Erin anyway, for all i know she may not be interested at all.
but with my luck, Erin doesnt want anything to do with me, and i'll wait it out with Sheila and she wont want to be more than just friends, and just for good measure, the LP wont clear up and i'll test positive for something. that would be very fitting.
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I was listening to a thing on NPR about the feddies entrapping some poor salesguy into making a stupid arms deal - but nobody (even him) could figure out WHY he did it - he'd never made an illegal arms deal in his life until this happened.
My theory is he did it cuz he could - if you say "yes I can make that happen, now give me money so I can go buy the stuff for you!" enough times eventually it either really happens (by some miracle) or they give up and go away - either thing is not bad and leaves the salesguy ahead.
Usually what really happens is lawsuits and lawyers and other bad things (in this case the guy got busted for abetting terrorism, which was neat since the only people he ever really talked to were from the US government in some form or another), but salesguys don't think like that, they think "I CLOSED THE DAMNED SALE - Yay ME!!".
Occasionally you get the "holey shit, NOW what" but mostly not.
That's sort of what you have to do, if you want to come out ahead. Try for both and hope like hell they both don't happen
Anyway, that's bad of me, I don't typically give advice but anyway, there it is