So, therapy has been going ok. Just talking about things, no real input yet. Which is a little weird, but I guess she's just trying to figure me out. Still not sure how this will all work out. I started this because of the issues I was having with my dad's death, but it's really turned into issues I'm having with my wife. Some that are my fault and I'd like to change but some that are her fault (caused by things I do) but I don't know... I just don't know where it all leads.
I guess my biggest fear is that she finally admits what's been going on, even though I already know, and then we can't recover from it and get divorced. I really don't want to be single again. I can't imagine trying to date again. That's part of the problem now is that we don't have enough time for us with work and the kids and just life. How would I have time to meet someone else? Then there's the kids, where would they go, who would they live with? I feel like me having them wouldn't be a bad thing for her, which I guess is what I want.. I don't know. So many questions.
Working from home this morning and taking the afternoon off to watch the soccer game. Then will have to drive out to my appointment. Thought about cancelling it, but should be able to make it out there in plenty of time.
