My heart is broken.
One of my boys from the placement I work at is leaving tomorrow morning. I just left from spending the evening with him. The Man assures me that he'll do fine out there in the real world and I have no doubt that he will. It's just that I will miss him. I know that is selfish but I really don't care. He is such an amazing kid, I don't even really know why he was here. Well....maybe I can see a little.
Saying goodbye is always so hard for me. Now I'm an emotional wreck. I cried all the way home and am still crying. I wish we could keep him. I wouldn't mind at all. We told him if he ever were to need anything to come to us (the Man works at the same place I do and is just as close to these kids as I am). So much heartbreak comes with this job. Why do I have to pay for seeing the good in these kids and for understanding them and being a parent/teacher/counselor to them? 5 months and he's in and out of my life. Hopefully not for good. I want him to be good, to be healthy and live his life. Isn't that what we should want for every child? I swear days like today make me wish I had another job. Fortunately, he chose to spend the entire day with me in my class, so at least I got to spend some time with him. I'm just so afraid that I'll never hear from him or see him again.
I just hope I made a difference in his life.
xoxox,
boohoo-cry-cry
One of my boys from the placement I work at is leaving tomorrow morning. I just left from spending the evening with him. The Man assures me that he'll do fine out there in the real world and I have no doubt that he will. It's just that I will miss him. I know that is selfish but I really don't care. He is such an amazing kid, I don't even really know why he was here. Well....maybe I can see a little.
Saying goodbye is always so hard for me. Now I'm an emotional wreck. I cried all the way home and am still crying. I wish we could keep him. I wouldn't mind at all. We told him if he ever were to need anything to come to us (the Man works at the same place I do and is just as close to these kids as I am). So much heartbreak comes with this job. Why do I have to pay for seeing the good in these kids and for understanding them and being a parent/teacher/counselor to them? 5 months and he's in and out of my life. Hopefully not for good. I want him to be good, to be healthy and live his life. Isn't that what we should want for every child? I swear days like today make me wish I had another job. Fortunately, he chose to spend the entire day with me in my class, so at least I got to spend some time with him. I'm just so afraid that I'll never hear from him or see him again.
I just hope I made a difference in his life.
xoxox,
boohoo-cry-cry