ive been fasting for the last 21 hours! im so proud of myself.....i want to keep it going for 2 days if i can...but im not sure how ill feel 2mw...i needed to do it to regain control. ive been eating way to much and i need to get focused.....this is the only way i can do that.it will help me get back on track!...
Read More
Read More
VIEW 12 of 12 COMMENTS
hahah i was just eating a pepperami and zombie said, " the comdom covered meat"
haha it made me laugh.
this morning i went for a quick walk to clear my head and get some fresh air....and i saw two little boys dressed as police officers.....i see em quite often at weekends playing cops.....its sooo freaking adorable....i walked past and said mornin officers.....they smiled and...
Read More
haha it made me laugh.
this morning i went for a quick walk to clear my head and get some fresh air....and i saw two little boys dressed as police officers.....i see em quite often at weekends playing cops.....its sooo freaking adorable....i walked past and said mornin officers.....they smiled and...
Read More
VIEW 27 of 27 COMMENTS
ladylovelybrit:
Yeah we did, and I thought we were friends, but in the end all he ever wanted to do was sexual stuff all the time, and I just can't do that all the fucking time and just have no attachment at all.
wish I could have, he was really fun and a sweet guy in the beginning.
wish I could have, he was really fun and a sweet guy in the beginning.
escapeodt:
i was about to say that i love you and your pink stuff too, but then i realised that it sounded kinda dirty...lol. but yes...i do love my new shirt and it's pinkness. i shall try to upload a picture either today or tomorrow, just for you and chrissy**
I think i really needed the break away from everything, but it's great to be back...i've really missed this place. i've missed talking to you especially. it seems like ages since we had a good chat...things aren't the same without it. we'll have to strike up another of our interesting little message exchanges and get things back on track!
**[Disclaimer] - I cannot be held liable for any mental scarring that you, or anybody else may suffer as a result of looking at my picture.
I think i really needed the break away from everything, but it's great to be back...i've really missed this place. i've missed talking to you especially. it seems like ages since we had a good chat...things aren't the same without it. we'll have to strike up another of our interesting little message exchanges and get things back on track!
**[Disclaimer] - I cannot be held liable for any mental scarring that you, or anybody else may suffer as a result of looking at my picture.
VIEW 9 of 9 COMMENTS
ra0ul:
Click on the NIN link on my journal for the first track from th new album
chelsey_girl:
mmm...donut looks freakin amazing 
VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
happycherries:
MMMMM thank you my dear. I'm very happy and doing well..
kittyvalentine:
The worst part of it was, I had a cameraman with a wide-angle lens filming me from below the waist . Not such a flattering angle.
And I dyed my hair last night, so it would be all lovely and fresh and root free for today, except it went much darker than usual and therefore made me look completely washed out.
Ah well, I can bitch and moan about it when I finally see it.
We had to sack the drummer due to a personality clash with my boy. These things happen, it's just a shame he didn't take the news so well.
Hope you had a lovely Valentines day. xx
And I dyed my hair last night, so it would be all lovely and fresh and root free for today, except it went much darker than usual and therefore made me look completely washed out.
Ah well, I can bitch and moan about it when I finally see it.
We had to sack the drummer due to a personality clash with my boy. These things happen, it's just a shame he didn't take the news so well.
Hope you had a lovely Valentines day. xx
weight lost since monday : 5 lbs
weight loss in totall : 5 lbs
it only 5 but its a start. i HAVE to do this. ive managed to remain strong willed even at times where i would normally have failed. so who knows....maybe this time i will shift this flab once and for all!!!
zombie has lost 3lbs.
gerard way has dyed his hair...
Read More
weight loss in totall : 5 lbs
it only 5 but its a start. i HAVE to do this. ive managed to remain strong willed even at times where i would normally have failed. so who knows....maybe this time i will shift this flab once and for all!!!
zombie has lost 3lbs.
gerard way has dyed his hair...
Read More
VIEW 17 of 17 COMMENTS
jay_blank:
I know! Who do I speak to about this? Where is my congressman?!
shanedoe:
the convention is from 27-29th july, so i'll have to wait a while...
the convention is from 27-29th july, so i'll have to wait a while...
VIEW 18 of 18 COMMENTS
tart:
they arent together anymore, but yeah, i dug em.
ladylovelybrit:
I almost bought that black parade cd yesterday, but I had to pick out of three.
But I am definitely getting it at some point.
Why I am telling you this?!
Because it made me think of pretty alice when I was standing in the aisle looking at it.
I hope you and your zombie are doing great, lovely.
Give him another big sloppy kiss for me.
I almost bought that black parade cd yesterday, but I had to pick out of three.
But I am definitely getting it at some point.
Why I am telling you this?!
Because it made me think of pretty alice when I was standing in the aisle looking at it.
I hope you and your zombie are doing great, lovely.
Give him another big sloppy kiss for me.
thanx for all the lovely messeges in my last blog. there were all appreciated.
im going to feed some ducks 2mw with my zombie, i love him soo much. i really dont know where id be without him.
we got tickets to give it a name!!! so im super exited about that.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Give_It_a_Name#Give_It_a_Name_2007
and if u havent already....go give your best wishes to both chomper...
Read More
im going to feed some ducks 2mw with my zombie, i love him soo much. i really dont know where id be without him.
we got tickets to give it a name!!! so im super exited about that.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Give_It_a_Name#Give_It_a_Name_2007
and if u havent already....go give your best wishes to both chomper...
Read More
VIEW 9 of 9 COMMENTS
escapeodt:
it's nice to see you back hun =) i'm not too sure what to make of the SA group at the moment. i always knew it existed, but...well...i dunno. i guess i never really felt an inclination to join it before. i've been trying to get to know people on here a bit more lately though, so i've been joining a few random groups here and there. i guess time will tell as to whether or not the SA group is somewhere i'd like to hang out. just out of curiosity...you said you didn't know you had SA until you joined the group. have you actually been diagnosed with it? or have you just figured it out yourself? i kind of did both...lol.
and having a BIG slate sucks =( makes me feel somewhat inadequate, i guess. i don't like having to depend on liss for money. it always used to be the other way around, but now that i'm on the dole, i've got fuck all. i can't wait to get a job...i really can't.
so how's everything going for you at the moment dear? you seemed a lot perkier in your last message than you have done in a while...i hope that's a reflection of your mood. i worry when you're upset. i hope that today is full of happiness, sparkles and all things pink and fluffy for you =)
and having a BIG slate sucks =( makes me feel somewhat inadequate, i guess. i don't like having to depend on liss for money. it always used to be the other way around, but now that i'm on the dole, i've got fuck all. i can't wait to get a job...i really can't.
so how's everything going for you at the moment dear? you seemed a lot perkier in your last message than you have done in a while...i hope that's a reflection of your mood. i worry when you're upset. i hope that today is full of happiness, sparkles and all things pink and fluffy for you =)
had a bad day today.
i broke down.
what sparked it?
i looked in the mirror before i got in the bath.
it made me question my whole purpose in life. all my non acheivments, my failures.
it made me cry.
i said some things......i shouldve known better......but i said them. i cant take them back now and i know he will worry about leaving...
Read More
i broke down.
what sparked it?
i looked in the mirror before i got in the bath.
it made me question my whole purpose in life. all my non acheivments, my failures.
it made me cry.
i said some things......i shouldve known better......but i said them. i cant take them back now and i know he will worry about leaving...
Read More
VIEW 25 of 28 COMMENTS
angel_ree:
ohmygod! I want to go too!!!!! xxx
rennison:
*hugs*
Oh stop talking nonsense!
YOU'RE NOT PATHETIC!
Besides being one hell of a hottie,
you're amazingly sweet.
Like SUGAR.
You'll get over this.
It's just a little dent in more of the awesome things that are to come.
Oh stop talking nonsense!
YOU'RE NOT PATHETIC!
Besides being one hell of a hottie,
you're amazingly sweet.
Like SUGAR.
You'll get over this.
It's just a little dent in more of the awesome things that are to come.
hello all.
sorry for the mammoth amount of pictures last time....i have a nasty habit of doin that!
right well...lets see....what can i tell u ?
well i gained weight
i made a decision to meet chomps......ill shit myself....and my social anxiety will hit the roof....but.....she knows all about all that....and i feel comfortable with her. but i have to do it alone.....jst me and...
Read More
sorry for the mammoth amount of pictures last time....i have a nasty habit of doin that!
right well...lets see....what can i tell u ?
well i gained weight
i made a decision to meet chomps......ill shit myself....and my social anxiety will hit the roof....but.....she knows all about all that....and i feel comfortable with her.
but i have to do it alone.....jst me and... Read More
VIEW 17 of 17 COMMENTS
captainhazzard:
Yeah, it is uber cool, I'm so glad that I dared myself to go to the first lesson. I nearly didn't because going somewhere were you don't know anyone and then hanging out reaqlly sucks!
So much poo talk going on here, I feel obliged to share too ha ha! I am a super efficient pooper, next morning after a big meal for me! Mmmmm, healthy!
So much poo talk going on here, I feel obliged to share too ha ha! I am a super efficient pooper, next morning after a big meal for me! Mmmmm, healthy!
tart:
that wouldnt be very zen of me...i rediscovered 7 up as well. i was sick and it always helps the tummy. and if there's anyone that appreciates a good poop, its me. hope that went well.
VIEW 25 of 29 COMMENTS
escapeodt:
i'm glad you had a good time at the concert hun =) i' sorry i couldn't have been there to see it/you myself...i would've gone if the SA hadn't been playing up =( i'm glad you had a good time though =)
and congrats on the car! it looks amazing! my parents are supposed to be getting me a car, but they say i have to find myself a job first =( i'm starting to think that's never gonna happen... =(
is that picture of the dead kids with the axe from a film? if so, what is it? oh, and the wheelers scared the shit outta me too. come to think of it, dorothy scared the shit out of me, so i guess you can't really judge anything by my standards...
i'm really sorry for not having been around much lately. i've been up to my eyes in fruitless job applications and interviews. i promise i'll be in much more regular contact once all this shit is out the way. i know i suck as a friend, and i'm sorry. you deserve so much better than this.
and congrats on the car! it looks amazing! my parents are supposed to be getting me a car, but they say i have to find myself a job first =( i'm starting to think that's never gonna happen... =(
is that picture of the dead kids with the axe from a film? if so, what is it? oh, and the wheelers scared the shit outta me too. come to think of it, dorothy scared the shit out of me, so i guess you can't really judge anything by my standards...
i'm really sorry for not having been around much lately. i've been up to my eyes in fruitless job applications and interviews. i promise i'll be in much more regular contact once all this shit is out the way. i know i suck as a friend, and i'm sorry. you deserve so much better than this.
tart:
team usa all the way. i dont know why i said that. YES! its an american show...you can rent it though. its so great. do you like much american tv or no? the humor is alot different.
VIEW 25 of 30 COMMENTS
peart28:
Is that what they all cutters in th uk "self harmers" all the kitties I know play rough. How you been?
atticstar:
wow...that's some hardcore kitties
hey all.....
well...i fucked up last night, and i cut......and i dont really know why. i wasnt feeling particularly down, or frustrated....or angry...or any of the things that normally result in me cutting. to be honest it was more like.....well....i just felt like it. wierd huh? i guess it really is more like an addiction in a way. the even wierder thing is....im totally not...
Read More
well...i fucked up last night, and i cut......and i dont really know why. i wasnt feeling particularly down, or frustrated....or angry...or any of the things that normally result in me cutting. to be honest it was more like.....well....i just felt like it. wierd huh? i guess it really is more like an addiction in a way. the even wierder thing is....im totally not...
Read More
VIEW 22 of 22 COMMENTS
ladylovelybrit:
Neverending story!!!
I used to watch that movie almost every sunday after church at my aunts, one of my all time faves.
I know what you mean by cutting and not knowing why, it seems to be the case with me too, I cut when I am depressed but also when I feel numb and figure out what the fuck I am feeling, I just want to feel that instead. so your not alone there sweets.
Now I know what to get you for your birthday from now on!!! I have about a billion my little ponies on my bookshelves, but I will get you new ones....LOL. I just have a ton of them too! They rock.
you with chips on your head is quite entertaining...LOL.
and yes I totally agree with what you said, I know that I am never going to be thin, but it would nice to be at a weight where I would be comfortable and more confident, FUCK I mean any weight smaller than where I am at is awesome for me!!!
These are like My Little Seahorsies!!!
I used to watch that movie almost every sunday after church at my aunts, one of my all time faves.
I know what you mean by cutting and not knowing why, it seems to be the case with me too, I cut when I am depressed but also when I feel numb and figure out what the fuck I am feeling, I just want to feel that instead. so your not alone there sweets.
Now I know what to get you for your birthday from now on!!!
I have about a billion my little ponies on my bookshelves, but I will get you new ones....LOL. I just have a ton of them too! They rock. you with chips on your head is quite entertaining...LOL.
and yes I totally agree with what you said, I know that I am never going to be thin, but it would nice to be at a weight where I would be comfortable and more confident, FUCK I mean any weight smaller than where I am at is awesome for me!!!
These are like My Little Seahorsies!!!
cheesy:
Thank you and I want to see the fringe!
Wearing Wotsit bags on your head is the next big thing I tell thee.
I don't think it's silly to collect MLP. I still have all of mine from when I was a kid. I prefer the originals. The new ones scare me.
I haven't seen the Neverending Story for years. I must gets it!
Wearing Wotsit bags on your head is the next big thing I tell thee.
I don't think it's silly to collect MLP. I still have all of mine from when I was a kid. I prefer the originals. The new ones scare me.
I haven't seen the Neverending Story for years. I must gets it!
I'm not getting too much colour, only one or two of the leaves and some of the flowers.
im on a coke diet right now... working out kind of good but i'm super hungry in the morning... hehehe... not gonna do it though... because "nothing taste better than being thin feels" LOL... muah!!