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Monday's my B-day and as someone so deftly pointed out I keep making a big deal out of it. Mainly, it's because I'll be 24 and I've never felt older. Age can eclipse years, and I feel as if I'm 30 pretending I'm 16 turning 24. This is not how my life was supposed to be. This is not WHERE I was supposed to be. Who's to blame? As always it's myself. Way too many wrong decisions. Too many broken hearts and lies. (both by my doing and from others) Definitely not the job or home situation I desired. Nor did I think I'd be single. Hell, I was supposed to be married at 19. Nothing is going right. There is no "upside" or "brightside". There's no such thing as a happy ending...