sit here and search myself .. Realizing that I need to stop running ... Stop searching and looking and just simply start living in today ... God knows I always had so many dreams in my heart that they often over ran my reality ... Not letting me focus on now .. Just kinda fogged the present into a culmination of many what if`s .. A lot of maybe`s and a ton of hurtful never will`s ... I just look at love as such a special and amazing thing that I always believed that I was a good enough person to have one of those amazingly special loves ... That one in a lifetime deals ... Yanno the "soul mate" ... I guess I realize that I need to focus on my own favorite quote in more than just words ... Cause we do find love in someone by loving them with all there imperfections .. Loving them purly and honestly .. Giving them more than we expect in return ... I have found that a hug can erase the anger of spilt soda ... That an I love you kiss can sooth a unexpected 1500 dollar credit card bill ... Not making the worry go away but putting them in there proper perspective .. Importain .. But not the end of the world ... Holding that the awe of having someone so special far exceeds anything else ... I want to walk in the insanity of dreamers .. Where love feeds, sooths and heals ... Idk ... I`m silly to be sure .. But I believe the love I have inside .. Has that ability ... And can caure that effect ... But maybe that`s what I need to wake up from ... Who knows ... All I can be is me ... Honest .. Loving .. Soft silly and sensetive ... Take me as me cause its all I know .. Typos and all lol
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i'm not a big spender and hopefully nothing bad happends
i jsut want to us it for small things and pay if every month and bill up my credit so i can get a hosue with my bf and not keep throwing away our money on a apartment!
but good luck selling yours, my parents r selling theres as well . they live in freehold nj