Wicked chastised feelings ... Locked in my pit of despair ... Haunting my every thought and emotion ... Shame on me for allowing the can nots to effect my cans ... Shame on me for allowing myself to sit idle at loves call ... Letting emotion and wicked selfishness rot in the hollows on my soul
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh ... I scream at the wicked anticipation of never materialized what if`s ... Screaming at my face .. Fucking my reality into small fragments of balanced hope ... Slap my ego as I lay my worthless nightmares at your feet .. What the hell do u need me for ... I weigh down your happiness with selfishness
never flexing the uncontrollable desires of my soul ... My arms carry my expanding heart because its gotten to big for my chest ... Strangers glare at my words laughing at the foolish attempts to instill an awe of emotional reaction .. when truths be told I am merely picking at my inner core .. trying to decipher the cryptic wanting feelings that fall mercilessly upon my hardened heart .. I refuse to let the last few precious seconds tick off the life's clock without an attempt to discover serenity ... That would be disgraceful to everything it means to me and everything my soul stands for
dizziness envelops my head .. As nurtured emotions seep from my fingertips ... Pounding this keyboard as I drip my soul onto these pages ... I rip open my soul for you to see ... Allowing you to judge me ... because baring my soul .. Is the only way I can leak out the ever expanding emotions ... I need to let them out so I don`t alienate my dreams ... As you read my words you must realize this isn`t descriptions of my new car .. Or step by step accounts of My friends and I joy riding in blissful happiness in daddy`s convertible ... I`m not puking sorrow at the death of the family pet ... I am trying to slice a piece of my inner soul ... So that for those few seconds of transfer ... I can put more effect into placing them here rather than dwelling on the reality`s of life
If you think these words drip needs of pity u can fuck yourself with my tears and doubled over agony and jealousy ... I slap you in the face of reality because in truth I don`t give a fuck what you think with your judgmental mind ... Your understanding doesn`t help the rocking that lulls me to sleep at night ... Your pity doesn`t soothe the cracks in the deepest regions of my soul .. So get the fuck over yourself and realize you have zero effect on the grand scheme of things ... You are merely a gnat flying in the face of a dying soul ... As my severed body holds on for last breath ... Pain searing thought ever fiber of my being .. Do u really think I notice that u decided to land on my cheek and rest your tiny feet on my tears
Ride the wave of my emotions where ever you want them to take you .. Just know I don`t notice because ur meager existence translates into a tiny pebbles ripple at the center of the tusatami`s crest as it heads for the shore line ... Your effect will never be noticed and in the end not a soul in the world will care .. Least of all me
Standing at the beach .. Looking up at the mile high face of the wave ... The furthest thing on my mind is you
Hello my name is Joseph Nardi ... You killed my soul ... And I`m prepared to die
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh ... I scream at the wicked anticipation of never materialized what if`s ... Screaming at my face .. Fucking my reality into small fragments of balanced hope ... Slap my ego as I lay my worthless nightmares at your feet .. What the hell do u need me for ... I weigh down your happiness with selfishness
never flexing the uncontrollable desires of my soul ... My arms carry my expanding heart because its gotten to big for my chest ... Strangers glare at my words laughing at the foolish attempts to instill an awe of emotional reaction .. when truths be told I am merely picking at my inner core .. trying to decipher the cryptic wanting feelings that fall mercilessly upon my hardened heart .. I refuse to let the last few precious seconds tick off the life's clock without an attempt to discover serenity ... That would be disgraceful to everything it means to me and everything my soul stands for
dizziness envelops my head .. As nurtured emotions seep from my fingertips ... Pounding this keyboard as I drip my soul onto these pages ... I rip open my soul for you to see ... Allowing you to judge me ... because baring my soul .. Is the only way I can leak out the ever expanding emotions ... I need to let them out so I don`t alienate my dreams ... As you read my words you must realize this isn`t descriptions of my new car .. Or step by step accounts of My friends and I joy riding in blissful happiness in daddy`s convertible ... I`m not puking sorrow at the death of the family pet ... I am trying to slice a piece of my inner soul ... So that for those few seconds of transfer ... I can put more effect into placing them here rather than dwelling on the reality`s of life
If you think these words drip needs of pity u can fuck yourself with my tears and doubled over agony and jealousy ... I slap you in the face of reality because in truth I don`t give a fuck what you think with your judgmental mind ... Your understanding doesn`t help the rocking that lulls me to sleep at night ... Your pity doesn`t soothe the cracks in the deepest regions of my soul .. So get the fuck over yourself and realize you have zero effect on the grand scheme of things ... You are merely a gnat flying in the face of a dying soul ... As my severed body holds on for last breath ... Pain searing thought ever fiber of my being .. Do u really think I notice that u decided to land on my cheek and rest your tiny feet on my tears
Ride the wave of my emotions where ever you want them to take you .. Just know I don`t notice because ur meager existence translates into a tiny pebbles ripple at the center of the tusatami`s crest as it heads for the shore line ... Your effect will never be noticed and in the end not a soul in the world will care .. Least of all me
Standing at the beach .. Looking up at the mile high face of the wave ... The furthest thing on my mind is you
Hello my name is Joseph Nardi ... You killed my soul ... And I`m prepared to die
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doxie:
The dogs had demodectic mange and looked much worse than the most recent photo. The previous owner had claimed to be treating their skin with utter butter with no success.... I prefer good ol' medicated dips and antibiotics
Utter butter won't do much against demodex mites.

rowanmayfair:
So does this journal entry mean we're not hanging out tonight?
