damn...i'm tired.
this week sucks ass.
i'm ready for it to be over.
i have so much to do i actually had to write down a schedule.
it's all shit that MUST be done if i want my life to run smoothly.
and somewhere in all that, i need to squeeze in time to practice ave maria for daniel's ash scattering on sunday.
so the week will end with a weekend where i see my grandmother, and get to listen to her critical rantings. always a good time.
the only thing that can save this week is if i end up getting a beautiful tattoo. it will also be nice to visit the mountains and see daniel's ashes fly on the wind from the cliffs. might even get to see a few friends...have a few good times for old times' sake. not sure how much of them i miss at this point though.
looking forward to getting a car on friday.
still feeling lonely while surrounded by people.
so many people like me...yet so few really know me.
gets frustrating sometimes. i want someone to hold me and seek out my mind. someone who hasn't known me. i seek to be known. is that shit searchable in the yellow pages?