wyspurr

ok...after the second day since practice, i'm convinced that i hurt something bad at roller derby. this is the most my muscles have ever hurt...even during basic training. it hurts to walk...when i squat at all, it feels like i'm being stabbed. it's the muscle that runs in the front of my leg from my knee to my thigh. no practice for me tonight...i don't want to tear my muscle, and i think it's coming close to that.

so...anyone want to apply to be my girlfriend or boyfriend? all that's required is that you don't mind me loving you, and that you love me back...you aren't afraid of affection or honesty...there's a sexual attraction between us...you aren't the jealous type...and you don't mind the fact that i have little time. i don't require monogomy, just appreciation of me. i'll be your friend, your lover, i'll even lick your ass if you wash real good first.

i've discovered that i don't feel like wasting my time anymore on fuck buddies. i inevitably put too much of my energy into it...and i'm sick of being a disposable toy. i wish we lived in a world where i could love everyone...but i know that most people can't handle things like that. they use emotions as tools to get what they want...rather than an expression of their inner truths. it's quite sad...and we are all way too lonely from living this way. anyone want to get together with me and my family and get a big house? i miss people. i miss people being included in my day to day life...sharing in my family...being a part of my tribe of friends.

rather than skate, i'm going to do some art tonight...either work on my collage, or at the very least, crochet something. i need an outlet.

and of course...don't forget to finish your taxes tonight. i need to file state for nc and ga.

so anyone want to go out for coffee tomorrow?