Last night I was up WAY too late chating at MyFreeCams. I wasn't doing the whole "sexy" thing, didn't dress up... I was just hanging out after everyone else went to bed. I was so stressed from my day, (arguing with kids till midnight... that's right... the little one didn't go to sleep till after midnight, and wouldn't let her sister sleep either). So, went on and just hung out, it was odd, and I made $5, which isn't bad considering when I've TRIED to be sexy, I've only made about $11 (the last few times)...
I'm really starting to think about my time and where it all goes. Thinking I want to start making better time of my time. Maybe get some of my goals accomplished. While I was chatting last night, I got to talking about my art... really got me thinking.
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I just got off the phone with Alan, (yes, my "ex" and I still talk multiple times a day). We were having one of our "enlightening" conversations.
Ok, backing up to explain. He and I have each done a few (and or several) "self-help" (personal development) seminars and read many books on the subject. We have talked about putting together our own seminar for years. Too many years to be just talking about it still... but I was mentioning bout the whole "time" thing earlier. Anyway... He sometimes posts his "little bits of wisdom" on facebook. And at one point, I started saving those posts in a word document. He said something enlightened to his roommate, she posted it on her blog, and he joked about me having to start saving her posts too... which, when he told me about it brought up an enlightening conversation starting with the idea of "unconditional love" as a redundancy. Eventually, the conversation came around to religion, and the lack of integrity in most religions. When we have these conversations we sometimes have friendly debates... one of us defends the point we disagree with, (we agree alot... which explains our 14 year history)...
I took the point of defending religion. It really occurred to me that many christian sects (at the very least), must maintain a child-state to be able to follow it. (I'm using "you" as a general statement meaning a christian...or most christians, not a specific)You "be good" not because it's simply the right thing to do but for your "salvation"; you go to church, but then cheat on your spouse; you follow on blind faith because you're told that they will lead you right, instead of having to think for yourself; you look outside for god when god is EVERYWHERE... That last one is the one that really gets me. There is no big guy "out there", god is within every single person! Why would you pray to god, then knowingly hurt those you love; it's an oxymoron!
Ok... that's today's rant...
I've started a new photo project: Digital Me
With my social anxiety, I have a very hard time being "me" in public around people. The only place I'm truely comfortable being me is online. Online is where I can "let my hair down", it's where I can be an exhibitionist and an extrovert.
A couple pictures from the beginning of Digital Me:
I'm really starting to think about my time and where it all goes. Thinking I want to start making better time of my time. Maybe get some of my goals accomplished. While I was chatting last night, I got to talking about my art... really got me thinking.
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I just got off the phone with Alan, (yes, my "ex" and I still talk multiple times a day). We were having one of our "enlightening" conversations.
Ok, backing up to explain. He and I have each done a few (and or several) "self-help" (personal development) seminars and read many books on the subject. We have talked about putting together our own seminar for years. Too many years to be just talking about it still... but I was mentioning bout the whole "time" thing earlier. Anyway... He sometimes posts his "little bits of wisdom" on facebook. And at one point, I started saving those posts in a word document. He said something enlightened to his roommate, she posted it on her blog, and he joked about me having to start saving her posts too... which, when he told me about it brought up an enlightening conversation starting with the idea of "unconditional love" as a redundancy. Eventually, the conversation came around to religion, and the lack of integrity in most religions. When we have these conversations we sometimes have friendly debates... one of us defends the point we disagree with, (we agree alot... which explains our 14 year history)...
I took the point of defending religion. It really occurred to me that many christian sects (at the very least), must maintain a child-state to be able to follow it. (I'm using "you" as a general statement meaning a christian...or most christians, not a specific)You "be good" not because it's simply the right thing to do but for your "salvation"; you go to church, but then cheat on your spouse; you follow on blind faith because you're told that they will lead you right, instead of having to think for yourself; you look outside for god when god is EVERYWHERE... That last one is the one that really gets me. There is no big guy "out there", god is within every single person! Why would you pray to god, then knowingly hurt those you love; it's an oxymoron!
Ok... that's today's rant...
I've started a new photo project: Digital Me
With my social anxiety, I have a very hard time being "me" in public around people. The only place I'm truely comfortable being me is online. Online is where I can "let my hair down", it's where I can be an exhibitionist and an extrovert.
A couple pictures from the beginning of Digital Me:
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imspectr:
Yeah, you can't be a hermit forever! 
imspectr:
How unfortunate...