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I'm having slightly depressing day today. Steve, my honey, gets stressed about me talking about getting a house, and I get stressed when I'm not focusing on it. I feel like we're at an impasse. When I was not really including him in the plans saying I need to do what I need to do, he got pissed that I was being selfish. When I include him he gets stress about it because of the money. I feel like I can't win. He was saying he feels like I'm making all the plans and expecting him to finance them... on the other hand, I bailed him out of jail, (but I can't bring that up) and for most of the past year or so I've been either supporting him, or the person supporting me supported him... so...

I admit, I'm selfish in a lot of ways... He knew this when we got together. But I have major anxiety issues, and need to do what's best for my (mental) health. I love his so much and don't want to lose him, but I can't just sit here and let whatever happens happen either, which seems to be what he wants to do.

So, I feel like I'm back to trying to figure our how I can do all this on my own and hope he chooses to come along... and if he doesn't I'll need to reconcile that too. I want home to do what's best for him, but I need to do what's best for me and my girls too.

In addition to all this, my girls are both sick, tomorrow my niece-in-law is coming out for a few days to visit... and I'm just TOTALLY stressing.

I just feel like I need to work towards doing all this on my own, maybe he'll be less stressed about it then...



On to a brighter note....


Lets give my girl Tweedle love and help her go PINK!