So, I can't find my ID anywhere. I think I'm going to need to find a way to get a state ID. Then, when I have some time and money I can go back and work out my driver's license, (it's suspended due to selling a car and not turning in the license plate... yay NJ). But I need to get an ID so I can go and visit Honey. He's sitting in there all alone with no one loving him. I also need to figure out what he wants me to do about telling/not telling family or anyone. In the one brief conversation we had, I was too shocked to think of that. (And he was concerned about getting of the phone with me since I was out with a friend from London, what an angel he is.)
On another note...
I'm reading Brave New World still, (almost done with it). It's interesting. I don't think it's as "pull you in" as 1984, but it's also not as deplorable a place. It's weird... The difference between happiness and truth, and what people will sacrifice for blind happiness.
There was a long time I strove to have the blind happiness that is left behind in youth while at the same time valuing freedom. But, it's ended me in some nasty situations. Other people's choices affected my "little world". I am now trying to branch out from that little world into the "world at large". It's a slow process at this point, especially with my anxiety issues, (which were assistants in the choices to stay in the little world).
While most people live in their own "little world" as well, it's larger the the one I've been living in. Theirs includes the world outside there home, their job, their hand-out spots. My little world primarily consisted of my dwelling place, anywhere outside of it was foreign soil. In many ways, I've lived in the "Brave New World" on a smaller scale, though I was out of the water there as well, like a Beta swimming in an Alpha life, or perhaps the other way around and an Alpha in a Beta life being bound and gagged in it's life... The later of which makes more sense. I know I'm a very outgoing person, but with my anxiety issues I'm stuck within it.
"Oh brave new world..."
Added at 3:30pm
So I got to hear from honey briefly. He says he's ok. He gave me the info I needed to put some money in his account so he can buy things he needs.
Also, I found my ID, so I'm not going to have to go out and get a new one.
On another note...
I'm reading Brave New World still, (almost done with it). It's interesting. I don't think it's as "pull you in" as 1984, but it's also not as deplorable a place. It's weird... The difference between happiness and truth, and what people will sacrifice for blind happiness.
There was a long time I strove to have the blind happiness that is left behind in youth while at the same time valuing freedom. But, it's ended me in some nasty situations. Other people's choices affected my "little world". I am now trying to branch out from that little world into the "world at large". It's a slow process at this point, especially with my anxiety issues, (which were assistants in the choices to stay in the little world).
While most people live in their own "little world" as well, it's larger the the one I've been living in. Theirs includes the world outside there home, their job, their hand-out spots. My little world primarily consisted of my dwelling place, anywhere outside of it was foreign soil. In many ways, I've lived in the "Brave New World" on a smaller scale, though I was out of the water there as well, like a Beta swimming in an Alpha life, or perhaps the other way around and an Alpha in a Beta life being bound and gagged in it's life... The later of which makes more sense. I know I'm a very outgoing person, but with my anxiety issues I'm stuck within it.
"Oh brave new world..."
Added at 3:30pm
So I got to hear from honey briefly. He says he's ok. He gave me the info I needed to put some money in his account so he can buy things he needs.
Also, I found my ID, so I'm not going to have to go out and get a new one.
I'm glad you found your ID! Keep plugging along, it'll work out.