wugglyump

damn i had a rough few weeks between getting dumped, my dad's health, and wicked mega new antidepressant. I fucked up with the hard liquor and freaked out my dad and don't remember. like way emotional and shit. I honestly hadn't had depression symptoms that severe since high school, and even then it wasn't like it's been.

i've been at a decent weight though for my height i should be ten pounds lighter which is like aw man, if i could drop another four or six that'd be rad. Yes, i prefer even numbers.

Being thirty has sucked so far, ha! Tomorrow my sister and i are riding to boston with papa ump for a consultation for a surgery he's getting. it's like a standard procedure, or common, i think but there's more junk going on with his health so we're all like... in no thank you mode. I love my dad shit loads, anyone who knows me knows this...so i think i am stressing particularly hard.

i'm back on the meds i was on and got weened off of to go on the one that i just had too much shittiness with. I'm doing so much better.

i have a facebook and vent pretty much anything on there, it was surprising and really uplifting to see how many people were supportive and kind to me in regards to the break up. I' really didn't expect kai to be...so... i'm not even sure the right word, like shitbaggy about not responding to anything, because i wasn't a dick you know, i wasn't harsh or mean to him,

i'm sleepy.