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i'm getting things out of my system before i peace. i still need to call the like lawyer. basically i got in trouble for driving with a suspended license among other things and will automatically be going to jail for a year.

my court date is not until February 17th. So it just feels like a count down, christmas, my birthday, it just means it's get closer and closer.

hopefully when i come out of this i will be more responsible. i know i'll come out of it ambien and booze free...which is a good. Ambien has been so tricky for me to get off of. i have head ache and i need to shower. i need to make some money. i haven't had the best hours at work and because i know i will be going to jail i'm not sure if i should try to pursue a hair dressing job at this point to like keep for two months. i just don't know.

i hate messing up but i do it so well. i'm glad i didn't hurt anyone. that would be some real bogus that i know i could not deal with.

what else. combichrist was such a great show i keep wishing i could rewind back to it. it's totally what i had been looking forward to since the summer.

i had so much sex in my dreams last night. kinky, gay, inter...racial or whatever. although watching the Jadefox video kinda put me in the mood.

presently i'm in the...i want to fuck shit up...aggressive mood. but it's just on the inside. i'd like...to have random aggressive relations. yep.

anyway...maybe i'll finish up what i started yesterday but for unknown reasons it just made me f-bombing sleepy. so who know.

mama likes combichrist.


and i leave you with this...my favorite quote right this minute:
"There's no love in your punches."