hmmm Im not terribly sure how I feel.
The sleep over was nice, despite the lack of crafts. But then i wonder...was i a creep? i kind of become a weirdo when my sleeping meds kick in. whatever.
I went out to dinner with my father and his girlfriend and her son. Shes very in your face; Im independent, no bullshitting yadda. That is fine. But I heard you the first time. My father is quite taken with her. So hooray for him. I want him to be happy.
But then it's like. Shit, I still live at home, if he up and left me, which I know is not the case, I do not have what it takes to make it on my own. Not yet. And Im not sure when. It looks like Im stuck at the dq for the summer. Yes it pays well. And I know I will be schedule so that I can bum a ride off of Amy, but Im not growing up I guess. Im just screwing up. I wonder what it'd be like if I didn't smash up the Sebring, if I didn't get pulled over at the beginning of the month, things like this happen and lessons are to be learned. Why can't I just learn things without fucking up?
Its in the past and the point is to learn and progress. Presently I feel empty. Im not certain why. My interaction with people lately has been a bit I don't knowish. It leaves me questioning things. Whatever.
But I did talk for a tiny bit, to the lady that came through drive thru, and I told her I will call her before I go into work tomorrow for three. Somewhat of a busy week ahead. Ive GOT to call the lawyer, and other crap. Id like to try to return the stackers that I received on the 4th. The date just keeps getting later and later. But although I apparently speak well on the phone, I hate it. I hate calling for things. HATE. But Im told that I speak well and don't really mumble.
I think just right now I am feeling a lot of things, emotions if you will.
Its been a while since an update like this huh?
In closing I hope you are all well. And if you read this, thanks.
ps- POW!
The sleep over was nice, despite the lack of crafts. But then i wonder...was i a creep? i kind of become a weirdo when my sleeping meds kick in. whatever.
I went out to dinner with my father and his girlfriend and her son. Shes very in your face; Im independent, no bullshitting yadda. That is fine. But I heard you the first time. My father is quite taken with her. So hooray for him. I want him to be happy.
But then it's like. Shit, I still live at home, if he up and left me, which I know is not the case, I do not have what it takes to make it on my own. Not yet. And Im not sure when. It looks like Im stuck at the dq for the summer. Yes it pays well. And I know I will be schedule so that I can bum a ride off of Amy, but Im not growing up I guess. Im just screwing up. I wonder what it'd be like if I didn't smash up the Sebring, if I didn't get pulled over at the beginning of the month, things like this happen and lessons are to be learned. Why can't I just learn things without fucking up?
Its in the past and the point is to learn and progress. Presently I feel empty. Im not certain why. My interaction with people lately has been a bit I don't knowish. It leaves me questioning things. Whatever.
But I did talk for a tiny bit, to the lady that came through drive thru, and I told her I will call her before I go into work tomorrow for three. Somewhat of a busy week ahead. Ive GOT to call the lawyer, and other crap. Id like to try to return the stackers that I received on the 4th. The date just keeps getting later and later. But although I apparently speak well on the phone, I hate it. I hate calling for things. HATE. But Im told that I speak well and don't really mumble.
I think just right now I am feeling a lot of things, emotions if you will.
Its been a while since an update like this huh?
In closing I hope you are all well. And if you read this, thanks.
ps- POW!
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If yah know yah should learn from everything.Seems like yah are on the right path.