You can't change the outside hoping to improve the inside. You defintely have to start from within. Funny how long it's taken me to figure the simplest shit out.
And here I was accusing him of not listening!!! Neither was I!To myself! I would have listened to him but he wouldn't talk... and all of my talking in frustration with no communication was usually in a fit of tears I tried too hard to hold back while he sat in a stoned gaze staring off into space humming baseball songs in his head. ( yeah, he really admitted it once long ago) Don't lecture you say? One if by lecture....2 if by communication!
Also how many times have I answered my own questions by asking the wrong person?
Like ~~~~~
"Why am I the only one working on this relationship?"
Twistfucked into:
~I am the only one working on this relationship! Ah--HA!
"Would if be better if we just parted ways?"
~It would be better if we just parted ways!
Wow, how could I expect him to communicate with me when I couldn't do it with myself? shit.... no wonder things didn't work out. Is this where the saying Life's a bitch came from because when I find her I'm going to beat her ass and I've NEVER been in the fight with a GIRL before. I'm a pacifist really. I hate being mad at myself but that is hindsight the only way you learn and therefore not wasted time.
There is a quote I think of:
"The time you enjoy wasting is not wasted time."
~ Bertrand Russell
Does anyone have a quote for the day or a quote that has stuck with them?
And here I was accusing him of not listening!!! Neither was I!To myself! I would have listened to him but he wouldn't talk... and all of my talking in frustration with no communication was usually in a fit of tears I tried too hard to hold back while he sat in a stoned gaze staring off into space humming baseball songs in his head. ( yeah, he really admitted it once long ago) Don't lecture you say? One if by lecture....2 if by communication!
Also how many times have I answered my own questions by asking the wrong person?
Like ~~~~~
"Why am I the only one working on this relationship?"
Twistfucked into:
~I am the only one working on this relationship! Ah--HA!
"Would if be better if we just parted ways?"
~It would be better if we just parted ways!
Wow, how could I expect him to communicate with me when I couldn't do it with myself? shit.... no wonder things didn't work out. Is this where the saying Life's a bitch came from because when I find her I'm going to beat her ass and I've NEVER been in the fight with a GIRL before. I'm a pacifist really. I hate being mad at myself but that is hindsight the only way you learn and therefore not wasted time.
There is a quote I think of:
"The time you enjoy wasting is not wasted time."
~ Bertrand Russell
Does anyone have a quote for the day or a quote that has stuck with them?
I recommend reading more Bertrand Russell.