I was feeling awful most of the day today. I was anticipating a long, lonely weekend, again. I needed to reach out to someone very badly. Yet, I didn't want to be a burden to people, especially feeling that most everyone had holiday plans that they were looking forward to.
I knew my daughters were both going to be busy with friends and family, so I decided not to bother them. I thought of calling one of my friends from SG. Again, I didn't want to disturb anyone's mood or plans. I contemplated sending one of a handful of people a PM in the hope that their reply would make me feel better. I was reluctant to bother anyone with my problems. Yet, as the day continued on, I felt worse and worse.
I decided to e-mail Lyrical. We'd been corresponding pretty regularly for a while even after she moved to England. However, we hadn't been in touch for about the past two months. I was desperate to reach out to someone, so I wound up expressing some very depressing and disturbing thoughts and feelings in the e-mail. I didn't know if she was going to reply, since I hadn't heard from her in a while. I figured that I might feel better if I wrote down my thoughts, whether or not there would be a reply.
Well, not long after I sent the e-mail, I received a warm, heartfelt, and very concerned reply from her. She said things that were very touching and personal. The things she said and the way she said them have made a major impact on me. Even though she's far away in miles, she still took the time to comfort me and show her love for me in my time of need.
As she has done so many times, she has come through for me once again when I needed her the most. I don't mean to imply that I don't appreciate the love and support that all of you have given me. You've shown me that you care about me time and time again. I guess today was a day when I needed to turn to someone that I felt an extra special bond with. I hope you understand what I'm trying to say.
I love and need all of my friends very much. I hope we can continue to be there for each other.
I knew my daughters were both going to be busy with friends and family, so I decided not to bother them. I thought of calling one of my friends from SG. Again, I didn't want to disturb anyone's mood or plans. I contemplated sending one of a handful of people a PM in the hope that their reply would make me feel better. I was reluctant to bother anyone with my problems. Yet, as the day continued on, I felt worse and worse.
I decided to e-mail Lyrical. We'd been corresponding pretty regularly for a while even after she moved to England. However, we hadn't been in touch for about the past two months. I was desperate to reach out to someone, so I wound up expressing some very depressing and disturbing thoughts and feelings in the e-mail. I didn't know if she was going to reply, since I hadn't heard from her in a while. I figured that I might feel better if I wrote down my thoughts, whether or not there would be a reply.
Well, not long after I sent the e-mail, I received a warm, heartfelt, and very concerned reply from her. She said things that were very touching and personal. The things she said and the way she said them have made a major impact on me. Even though she's far away in miles, she still took the time to comfort me and show her love for me in my time of need.
As she has done so many times, she has come through for me once again when I needed her the most. I don't mean to imply that I don't appreciate the love and support that all of you have given me. You've shown me that you care about me time and time again. I guess today was a day when I needed to turn to someone that I felt an extra special bond with. I hope you understand what I'm trying to say.
I love and need all of my friends very much. I hope we can continue to be there for each other.
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I hope that the change in the weather also brings you some better times
Stay strong. Best wishes.
xxoo