wsoxfan

I've been on the prescribed medication for over a week now. The dosage was increased the other day, according to plan. It's been explained to me that it takes a month or so to feel the full effect of this anti-depressant and anti-anxiety medication.

I don't really understand much of this. I'm feeling like shit today, probably because I'm thinking too much. All I can think about is how my quality of life has deteriorated over the past couple of months. I don't feel that I can make any progress without some money starting to come in. Jobs are hard to find, especially for a 61 year old man who hasn't worked in three years. I know I've said that before, but I can't help feeling that finding and succeeding at a new job is very problematic.

I wasn't able to pay my rent for January. I did some research regarding landlord/tenant issues. I learned that my landlord has to go through a complicated legal process in order to evict me. This could take several months. Even so, I feel terrible that I have to be delinquent on my obligations. This never happened to me before. I'm ashamed to be what amounts to a deadbeat.

I'm afraid that all the medication in the world won't make it better unless something changes for me financially. I guess these are things that I need to speak to my therapist about on Tuesday. I know that people will preach patience on my part. It's just that I feel like I'm running out of time.