Things were looking up to some degree when I posted my last blog. Unfortunately, several things have happened over the past week that caused me to feel hurt and disappointed.
In spite of adjustments I've made, my financial situation continues to deteriorate. Mae-Ann and I have been discussing my moving in with her for a while now. The main obstacle has been that she has an emotionally disturbed son living with her. His presence would make it just about impossible for us to live together. Moving in with her would alleviate a great deal of my money problems. More importantly, It's been so long since I've cared enough about someone to want to live with them. I've been living alone since my wife passed away over three years ago. I would love to be in a domestic situation again. Mae-Ann is the first person I have thought of that way since my terrible loss.
For the first time in memory, my daughter Ellen, along with my son in law and my grandchildren won't be able to make it up here for Thanksgiving. Considering the way I've been feeling lately, not having them here makes me especially sad. At least my daughter Heather will be here to spend the holiday with me. I'm grateful for that.
It looks like someone I felt very close to as a friend has distanced themselves from me over the past few weeks. I had attempted to contact this person in the hope of finding out the reason for this, to no avail. I have to accept that this person no longer wants to be in my life, which is painful enough for me. What makes it worse is that I have no real clue as to the reason.
I hate when I post blogs like this, yet I find myself doing it anyway. I'm sorry I'm being such a downer. I wish I felt better.
In spite of adjustments I've made, my financial situation continues to deteriorate. Mae-Ann and I have been discussing my moving in with her for a while now. The main obstacle has been that she has an emotionally disturbed son living with her. His presence would make it just about impossible for us to live together. Moving in with her would alleviate a great deal of my money problems. More importantly, It's been so long since I've cared enough about someone to want to live with them. I've been living alone since my wife passed away over three years ago. I would love to be in a domestic situation again. Mae-Ann is the first person I have thought of that way since my terrible loss.
For the first time in memory, my daughter Ellen, along with my son in law and my grandchildren won't be able to make it up here for Thanksgiving. Considering the way I've been feeling lately, not having them here makes me especially sad. At least my daughter Heather will be here to spend the holiday with me. I'm grateful for that.
It looks like someone I felt very close to as a friend has distanced themselves from me over the past few weeks. I had attempted to contact this person in the hope of finding out the reason for this, to no avail. I have to accept that this person no longer wants to be in my life, which is painful enough for me. What makes it worse is that I have no real clue as to the reason.
I hate when I post blogs like this, yet I find myself doing it anyway. I'm sorry I'm being such a downer. I wish I felt better.
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velvet_petal:
I hope that despite some of the circumstances that you have a lovely holiday too. As for me, the house is clean and pretty. I got the last fresh Butterball in the store today. Felt kind of guilty when seconds after I picked it up and walked away I heard a lady asking one of the clerks if they had anymore fresh Butterballs. I have all the fixings and my plan is to get up really early make the meal and then make the 180 mile drive to my parents and surprise them. I had called them last weekend to give them the disappointing news that I had so much work stuff pending that I didn't think I could make it....which was true, but I got more handled than expected and what the hell....it's Thanksgiving, right?
gingerkiss:
I had a nice and mellow Turkey day. Thank you and hope you had a nice one 