today i really really miss the baby. ugh. i hate these days.
and i'm all worried about shaun and his family because his grandma is really sick and he had to go to joliet from the city to visit her in the hospital because they figure it'll probably be the last time he gets to see her. it's just sad. and he was there for me when my grandpa died, and it helped a lot. he just let me cry. and i needed him there. and i wish there was something i could do to make him feel better. it's one of the situations that i wish i could fix, even though i know i can't. i just hate when he's in pain so much. and i feel like an ass because i told him to call any time at all if he needed to talk, and he called in the middle of the night last night, and my stupid phone was on silent so i missed it and just kept peacefully sleeping. yeah, i know, it's something i shouldn't feel guilty about, but i do. ugh, i hate being in this stupid college town 2 1/2 hours away from anything that matters.
and i'm all worried about shaun and his family because his grandma is really sick and he had to go to joliet from the city to visit her in the hospital because they figure it'll probably be the last time he gets to see her. it's just sad. and he was there for me when my grandpa died, and it helped a lot. he just let me cry. and i needed him there. and i wish there was something i could do to make him feel better. it's one of the situations that i wish i could fix, even though i know i can't. i just hate when he's in pain so much. and i feel like an ass because i told him to call any time at all if he needed to talk, and he called in the middle of the night last night, and my stupid phone was on silent so i missed it and just kept peacefully sleeping. yeah, i know, it's something i shouldn't feel guilty about, but i do. ugh, i hate being in this stupid college town 2 1/2 hours away from anything that matters.