man, i eat entirely too much food.
also, i think michael is quickly losing interest because i've been so cranky and insecure lately. i need to get that under control, but it's hard when he doesn't talk to me and never wants to see me. i'm not sure what i'm going to do. i'm trying to remain calm so things can be cool again, but it's hard because i really like him. and i'm afraid i'm turning into a well i'm not doing anything right now, i guess maybe she can come over, type thing for him. i hate feeling needy. and i'm content whenever i'm with him, even if we're just laying there watching movies, so it's hard not to be needy.
i have a horrible way of sabatoging things once i get nervous. i give them reasons to get rid of me. i hate being a girl sometimes.
also, i think michael is quickly losing interest because i've been so cranky and insecure lately. i need to get that under control, but it's hard when he doesn't talk to me and never wants to see me. i'm not sure what i'm going to do. i'm trying to remain calm so things can be cool again, but it's hard because i really like him. and i'm afraid i'm turning into a well i'm not doing anything right now, i guess maybe she can come over, type thing for him. i hate feeling needy. and i'm content whenever i'm with him, even if we're just laying there watching movies, so it's hard not to be needy.
i have a horrible way of sabatoging things once i get nervous. i give them reasons to get rid of me. i hate being a girl sometimes.
sometrees:
Listen to song #5 on The Weakerthans, Reconstruction Site. It always leaves me beautifully sad, but feeling better.