wrigley

my room seems girly again, i think it's just because i cleaned it so my bed is comfy again and there are tons of pillows and i have a pink teddy bear that smells like roses on it.

i feel girly today, i'm not sure i like it. when i feel girly it mostly just means i want to be held and adored and get forehead kisses. i don't want to pretend i can be witty or smart or fun. i just want skin touching mine. my cuddle partner and i no longer speak, so girly days are just lonely.

sometimes i feel like everyone expects me to be something special, or have some sort of extra-ordinary quality. i just want to be me, a needy girl that likes watching movies and waking up next to some one. all i want to do is be able to tell someone they make me happy and hear the same thing back from them.

hmm, i wonder if i'm going to be bleeding soon, that's awfully girlie.