so the blood work came back fine. it was so scary. i'm super scared of getting blood drawn, but Tiffy came with me and held my hand. so, right now we know that i'm not still pregnant and there is no sign of serious infection beause my cell count is ok. tomorrow i have to go back and make sure that there is no leftover tissue in my uterus or anything.
this whole situation is just really really really weird. i dunno, i mean, regardless of the birth control you use sometimes shit just happens, but still. it's sort of surreal. i know it's better that the pregnancy spontaneously aborted after 5 weeks, but like, i dunno. i can't even describe it. and for some reason it's easier to vent to people that don't see me everyday. time to try and sleep.
so today was the ultrasound. i go in thursday to discuss the results with the dr. but the nurse that did it said there does not seem to be any tissue or fluid in my uterus, which is good.
she sort of made me feel really bad though. i mean, she was filling out the paper work and i was answering all my questions, yes i had all these symptoms of pregnancy, yes i was late on my period, yes i took a home test, yes it said no, well that's why i didn't come in, it said no, well did you have all the symptoms and no period, yeah, well then you should have come in, those urine tests are unreliable when they give you no's....well how was i supposed to know that....so then about 6-7 weeks from your last period you got a random day of cramping and really heavy bleeding...yes...and you didn't come in...no....well that's a miscarriage...well i'm 21 and doing this alone and scared shitless. i did the best i could. pretty much she made me feel like i just didn't care and that's why i didn't go in and i should be pregnant right now still. she made me cry. i mean. i don't need a lecture on what i should have done. it's over now. and you know why i'm in there getting the utlrasound, checking for fucking tissue, try to be a little nice to me. but, all the bleeding seems to just be because my body has been on hormonal haywire this whole time.
and i've called danny before and after every test. haven't heard a thing back. last i heard of him someone saw him at a party over the weekend with my ex bf that i dated for like 3 years and had a super super shitty breakup with. great....he's hanging out with the ex, has a hot girlfriend, and i'm getting my vag probed everyday!! something seems not fair.
according to the dr's chart i'm overweight.
oh, i cut my bangs back.
this whole situation is just really really really weird. i dunno, i mean, regardless of the birth control you use sometimes shit just happens, but still. it's sort of surreal. i know it's better that the pregnancy spontaneously aborted after 5 weeks, but like, i dunno. i can't even describe it. and for some reason it's easier to vent to people that don't see me everyday. time to try and sleep.
so today was the ultrasound. i go in thursday to discuss the results with the dr. but the nurse that did it said there does not seem to be any tissue or fluid in my uterus, which is good.
she sort of made me feel really bad though. i mean, she was filling out the paper work and i was answering all my questions, yes i had all these symptoms of pregnancy, yes i was late on my period, yes i took a home test, yes it said no, well that's why i didn't come in, it said no, well did you have all the symptoms and no period, yeah, well then you should have come in, those urine tests are unreliable when they give you no's....well how was i supposed to know that....so then about 6-7 weeks from your last period you got a random day of cramping and really heavy bleeding...yes...and you didn't come in...no....well that's a miscarriage...well i'm 21 and doing this alone and scared shitless. i did the best i could. pretty much she made me feel like i just didn't care and that's why i didn't go in and i should be pregnant right now still. she made me cry. i mean. i don't need a lecture on what i should have done. it's over now. and you know why i'm in there getting the utlrasound, checking for fucking tissue, try to be a little nice to me. but, all the bleeding seems to just be because my body has been on hormonal haywire this whole time.
and i've called danny before and after every test. haven't heard a thing back. last i heard of him someone saw him at a party over the weekend with my ex bf that i dated for like 3 years and had a super super shitty breakup with. great....he's hanging out with the ex, has a hot girlfriend, and i'm getting my vag probed everyday!! something seems not fair.
according to the dr's chart i'm overweight.
oh, i cut my bangs back.
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HOPE YOU'RE FEELING BETTER!!!!!!!!
Take Care Sweetie~
also forget that chart, your perfect, you look so soft!(mmmm, soft)