bah.

today was no boys day. me and my roommate watched the virgin suicides and drank long islands. now i'm drinking alone and eating potato salad.

i had a huge fight with my good friend richie today. we were sort of casually see each other on and off and he's one of my best friends in the world and he's going back to this stupid whore that fucks him over all the time, meanwhile i'm sitting over here loving him to death and being there for him. and it's so frustrating. so we fought about it today and he told me that it was my fault that he and jenn (the whore) didn't work out the first time because he made the mistake of giving me too much attention because i was having a hard time with life and he felt sorry for me. gee, thanks for your pity, i thought we had something. and he told me he has no interest at all in me and i need to just swallow my pride and get over it.....this coming after an evening of spooning and kisses.
bah. i don't need his pity affection. that just fucking hurts, because i care about him for real.

boy, why you gotta play me like that?

new rule, only dating girls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!