1. Trying to get Grandma into a home. We aren't sure if the grief is making things worse and if she'll get better, or if this is the beginning of the end. The night Daddy died my uncle brought my grandmother to the house and every time he left the room, she would lean down and kiss my father's forehead and whisper to him, "You were my favorite, you were my favorite." You call her and ask her a question and she goes off on this tangent about the Depression and how she was a late bloomer. She told me that she got her last doll on her fifteenth birthday, that her parents told her it was her last doll. "I didn't really know about boys," she said, "When I found out about them, I thought it was a swell idea." She told me that part three times and laughed every time. Her father was a circuit rider. That's a pastor on horseback.
2. I spent $45.00 at Target tonight because I didn't know what the hell else to do with myself. Some of it I needed, some of it I didn't.
3. I got a speeding ticket on the way home from WI. I could tell the cop felt bad. Did you know it's a felony to have a driver's license in two states? Did you know that it's incumbent upon you to cancel one of them? I didn't. The cop put the points on my WI license and told me to cancel it as soon as possible. I was going 85 in a 65 but he lowered it to 80. It's still $188.00. Ugh.
4. I go back to work on Monday. My last day with Wal-Mart will be February 12th. I'm freaked out, but there's so much else going on in my head right now that there's no room to be worried about my job. So I guess it works out pretty well.
5. I rented Dawn of The Dead and Murderball. I love George Romero but would you believe I'd never seen Dawn? It's good! The zombie makeup is wierd (why are they blue?) but it was cool to watch. I haven't watched Murderball yet - I'm waiting for devilducky to get home from Chicago where he's playing airsoft.
6. You know that eHarmony commercial inwhich the creepy white haired dude says earnestly "You deserve to be in love!"The commercial came on and my brother whined at the screen "That's what I told the cops! But they said 'No, first you have to have all of your potential neighbors sign this form.' And then I got frustrated and gave up."
7. I don't know how the hell I'm going to go back to work let alone find a new job. I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing with myself right now.
8. Thank you for the condolences, everyone. It means a lot.
2. I spent $45.00 at Target tonight because I didn't know what the hell else to do with myself. Some of it I needed, some of it I didn't.
3. I got a speeding ticket on the way home from WI. I could tell the cop felt bad. Did you know it's a felony to have a driver's license in two states? Did you know that it's incumbent upon you to cancel one of them? I didn't. The cop put the points on my WI license and told me to cancel it as soon as possible. I was going 85 in a 65 but he lowered it to 80. It's still $188.00. Ugh.
4. I go back to work on Monday. My last day with Wal-Mart will be February 12th. I'm freaked out, but there's so much else going on in my head right now that there's no room to be worried about my job. So I guess it works out pretty well.
5. I rented Dawn of The Dead and Murderball. I love George Romero but would you believe I'd never seen Dawn? It's good! The zombie makeup is wierd (why are they blue?) but it was cool to watch. I haven't watched Murderball yet - I'm waiting for devilducky to get home from Chicago where he's playing airsoft.
6. You know that eHarmony commercial inwhich the creepy white haired dude says earnestly "You deserve to be in love!"The commercial came on and my brother whined at the screen "That's what I told the cops! But they said 'No, first you have to have all of your potential neighbors sign this form.' And then I got frustrated and gave up."
7. I don't know how the hell I'm going to go back to work let alone find a new job. I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing with myself right now.
8. Thank you for the condolences, everyone. It means a lot.
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Take care!
The best advice I can offer, regarding your Grandma, is to talk to her whenever you can. I don't know what your relationship is with you Gran, but from personal experience you can learn a lot from grandparents. When my Nan moved back into the area after living in a different province for years I visited her a lot. I learned that she was a candy striper in her youth, and saw pictures of her and my grandpa of when they were young. It may not seem like very important information, but now that she's gone I treasure those memories, and regret that I didn't make more time for her. Grandparents are trying to cope with aging bodies and minds; they also have to attempt to come to terms with the fact that they are about to face the greatest mystery of life: death.
I can't say what everyone needs, but I think anyone could use a friend, and a sympathetic ear, to help deal with the transition.
Just some random thoughts from a stranger. Good luck.