So now I feel like this uber computer genius just because I hooked up a second monitor to my laptop and made it one continuous desktop. Confining your desktop to one monitor is SO plebeian.
Anyays..not much is going on lately. Im out of money because I bought a digital camera last week, so I dont get to eat for a while. Partly cause it seems like my eating is way out of control recently, and this seems like the only way for me to get a grip on it. I had just been getting on the right path for being healthy when I needlessly fucked it up.
I submitted some pics of my piercings to BME for no real reason, mainly to get some use out of my camera.
Now off of that somewhat depressing note, I definetly have my desired job for this summer. Not that it is something I really enjoy, but its unsupervised-work-on-my-own work that gains me 14.25 and hour. And so if I work for a few months at it, I should have numerous thousands of dollars ready for next year.
Here is what, Im predicting my grades will be at the end of this year:
Art history: Fail or C-(C+ at end of last semester)
Photography: B(official)
Drawing: B
Digi Art: C
Medieval Religion: C-B
Philo of religion: C+(official)
Logic and Crit thinking: C-(official)
Fine art has a required 68% average for my art courses, so I -think- that shouldnt be a problem. Art history Im predicting repeating just because this school year has been very rough emotionally and mentally and this class has born the brunt of me not having any motivation.
The other classes I just need to pass so im happy I havent failed any of them and I doubt I will.
Ive also taken 6 credits shorter than I probably should have, but Ill just have to make those up next year. THough I feel Im kinda making cheques I wont be able to cash by saying all this stuff Ill do next year. But I pretyt much just want this shitty year to end.
It gets to me even harder by the fact that I have three brothers going to university now that are all applying themselves way more than I can get myself to and seem to be learning and growing on their own. Ah well.
The only thing that makes me feel better is when I look at the big picture, its one year out of my life, it is not irreversible, and plenty of people find themselves in holes much deeper than mine before realizing whats going on.
My parents have been urging me to go to the university councelling center to help me out, but I dont think I will. I went in first year and built a substantial and beneficial relationship with one of the shrinks but she left at the end of the year and I dont really want to build up ANOTHER relationship with anyone. Plus it seems pretty pointless.
Heh, holy crap, didnt mean to write out this spiral of angst and misery this long
. On the other side of the coin Ive been making myself go out more and enjoy myself, went to two beer gardens this past week and am looking forward to arts county fair.
As well I need to think of what I want to do money wise. It was probably irresponcible of me to buy a camera, but I definetly wont ask for any financial help for at -least- the duration of how long that money should have lasted me. Seems the least I can do for squandering it in that manner.
I hope y'all are doing well in your own little worlds, man I cant wait for a break. Though Im sure at the end of may Ill be groaning for school to start again!
Also here's a pic of my room, since I like fooling around with my new cam:
Anyays..not much is going on lately. Im out of money because I bought a digital camera last week, so I dont get to eat for a while. Partly cause it seems like my eating is way out of control recently, and this seems like the only way for me to get a grip on it. I had just been getting on the right path for being healthy when I needlessly fucked it up.
I submitted some pics of my piercings to BME for no real reason, mainly to get some use out of my camera.
Now off of that somewhat depressing note, I definetly have my desired job for this summer. Not that it is something I really enjoy, but its unsupervised-work-on-my-own work that gains me 14.25 and hour. And so if I work for a few months at it, I should have numerous thousands of dollars ready for next year.
Here is what, Im predicting my grades will be at the end of this year:
Art history: Fail or C-(C+ at end of last semester)
Photography: B(official)
Drawing: B
Digi Art: C
Medieval Religion: C-B
Philo of religion: C+(official)
Logic and Crit thinking: C-(official)
Fine art has a required 68% average for my art courses, so I -think- that shouldnt be a problem. Art history Im predicting repeating just because this school year has been very rough emotionally and mentally and this class has born the brunt of me not having any motivation.
The other classes I just need to pass so im happy I havent failed any of them and I doubt I will.
Ive also taken 6 credits shorter than I probably should have, but Ill just have to make those up next year. THough I feel Im kinda making cheques I wont be able to cash by saying all this stuff Ill do next year. But I pretyt much just want this shitty year to end.
It gets to me even harder by the fact that I have three brothers going to university now that are all applying themselves way more than I can get myself to and seem to be learning and growing on their own. Ah well.
The only thing that makes me feel better is when I look at the big picture, its one year out of my life, it is not irreversible, and plenty of people find themselves in holes much deeper than mine before realizing whats going on.
My parents have been urging me to go to the university councelling center to help me out, but I dont think I will. I went in first year and built a substantial and beneficial relationship with one of the shrinks but she left at the end of the year and I dont really want to build up ANOTHER relationship with anyone. Plus it seems pretty pointless.
Heh, holy crap, didnt mean to write out this spiral of angst and misery this long
. On the other side of the coin Ive been making myself go out more and enjoy myself, went to two beer gardens this past week and am looking forward to arts county fair.
As well I need to think of what I want to do money wise. It was probably irresponcible of me to buy a camera, but I definetly wont ask for any financial help for at -least- the duration of how long that money should have lasted me. Seems the least I can do for squandering it in that manner.
I hope y'all are doing well in your own little worlds, man I cant wait for a break. Though Im sure at the end of may Ill be groaning for school to start again!
Also here's a pic of my room, since I like fooling around with my new cam:
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