worldablaze

Wow...I just went over the past 8 months of my blogs. I can't believe just how negative and unproductive they are. I don't know what to think about that. On the one hand, they were meant as a means for me to keep a journal, so they're no more than a depiction of what's been on my mind. But on the other hand, I'm kind of disgusted by the lack of substance in them. Makes me wish I had more to say.
I'm really falling into another serious downward spiral. Lately I just feel like I have to get the fuck out of here. I feel like I'm suffocating.
October will determine everything. I don't want to put too much pressure on myself, but I really have to get selected for Special Forces. My knee's still not 100%. If it isn't by October...oh well. I'm going either way. I can't put it off any longer.