worldablaze

The situation is getting out of control. I'm lashing out in all directions and I think I'm actually getting scared of myself again. If this doesn't stop, I'll be losing the few good relations I have and causing even more damage to the many fragile ones. I can't let any of that happen. If I keep snapping at all these worthless army officers and senior NCOs, I'll end up losing rank and maybe going to jail. I have to get out of here. If I get in trouble it'll slow me down getting into Special Forces, then I'll be screwed. Fuck, I don't know what to do. Half the time I'm practically or literally trembling with fury. I need to get the fuck away from these fucking amateur lapdog bitches that I work with. Words will only last so long before I break someone's face. I already have preferences who.
And I'm scared. For the first time in a while I feel like I have something to lose, and I'm scared I will.