woohoocthulhu

Been struggling with a rather large thought lately. I feel really insignifigant and I don't know how to fix it. Here in Colorado I'm very lonely. I miss all my friends in Chicago. I miss Chicago. I feel out of place and alone which = insignifigant.

Now, I know what some of you are thinking - "Quit your bitching and get out and make new friends. When life gives you shit then you just gotta make some shit-ade and get on with it."

To an extent, I agree with you, which is why I'll be cruising around tomorrow to meet some new people. On the other hand I would beg any of you who may think that I'm crying over spilled milk to realize that I've moved around a lot in my life, so making friends has always been difficult. When I moved to Gurnee, I was lucky enough to have the perfect circle of friends practically fall into my lap over the course of about 3 days. After 5 years with those people I find it exceedingly difficult to just move on, especially considering the sparkling hope I have of moving back Home before this year is out.

As much as I've tried to introvert and "Henry Rollins" myself, I find more and more that I am a social creature. I may be overbearing, annoying and not too good at debating, but my friends love me and I love all of them dearly. It's not something I can easily fix and currently, that's driving me slowly insane.