I don't know what to write at this moment, other than to say that things are sucking quite heavily at school right now.
All the girls (and guys) are at least 12 years younger than me so it's kinda hard for them and me to always relate, the police just arrested a bunch of kids protesting for the food workers to be able to vote for the union, I'm still on fuckin' voice and speech probation from a couple of crazy ladies and the campus is still in the middle of nowhere.
Lately, I've been processing all these years of repressed RAGE and burried resentments, mostly romantic. My self-esteem is just beginning to knit back together, or really, just starting to form for the first time and I just keep gettin' all these evaluations to stop navel gazin' and being so unsure of myself! UGH! FUCK!! I am so tired of hearing that and I am also so tired of ALL my romantic encounters with women being them just BOOTYCALLING me and then never wanting it to go beyond that. So you're impressed with my fuckin' anatomy, but that doesn't make it any easier to sleep alone at night. I miss the sound of someone sighing in their sleep next to me...
I've heard the advice to be more of an asshole but I still have to be my own company, so who wants to be that?
The only good thing I have to report is that I got Pavel Tsatsouline's new book, "The Naked Warrior" and it is doing everything that it promises; in less than a week, I've been able to start doing full butt-to-ground pistols and now I'm just starting to be able to do one-arm pushups-WOW!
I've been working with the kettlebells for a while but this is the first week in my life that I've ever had biceps! OMFG! How splendiferous is that; I feel completely effervescent!
LOooovvve to everyone that read this far...
P.S.
Please go to Lolita's journal and wish her & her brother the best; he just got hurt in Baghdad.
All the girls (and guys) are at least 12 years younger than me so it's kinda hard for them and me to always relate, the police just arrested a bunch of kids protesting for the food workers to be able to vote for the union, I'm still on fuckin' voice and speech probation from a couple of crazy ladies and the campus is still in the middle of nowhere.
Lately, I've been processing all these years of repressed RAGE and burried resentments, mostly romantic. My self-esteem is just beginning to knit back together, or really, just starting to form for the first time and I just keep gettin' all these evaluations to stop navel gazin' and being so unsure of myself! UGH! FUCK!! I am so tired of hearing that and I am also so tired of ALL my romantic encounters with women being them just BOOTYCALLING me and then never wanting it to go beyond that. So you're impressed with my fuckin' anatomy, but that doesn't make it any easier to sleep alone at night. I miss the sound of someone sighing in their sleep next to me...
I've heard the advice to be more of an asshole but I still have to be my own company, so who wants to be that?
The only good thing I have to report is that I got Pavel Tsatsouline's new book, "The Naked Warrior" and it is doing everything that it promises; in less than a week, I've been able to start doing full butt-to-ground pistols and now I'm just starting to be able to do one-arm pushups-WOW!
I've been working with the kettlebells for a while but this is the first week in my life that I've ever had biceps! OMFG! How splendiferous is that; I feel completely effervescent!
LOooovvve to everyone that read this far...
P.S.
Please go to Lolita's journal and wish her & her brother the best; he just got hurt in Baghdad.
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I must get that book, since I have been plateau-ing with my heavy-set workouts for the last couple months. I am going to be doing an Elite Forces boot camp for civvies, and it will be easy if I can get on that regime.
XOX-L