Is it bad if I can't even remember having a day off work. It's been over three weeks now, and I must say, exhaustion is starting to set in. I feel broken down and beaten up and all I want to do is sleep and cry and have sex and sleep, but for some reason none of those is happening at the moment. Taking on two jobs, my insomnia is getting worse and I'm resorting to alcohol to get me to sleep. Does it make you an alcoholic if you've gotten drunk more than 7 days in a row? I haven't for the feeling, but mearly because it has been the only way I could get to sleep. I must say, life is incredibly strange right now. Part of me is debating weather or not my beloved is still in love with me. Along with not being able to remember the last time I had a day off, I also can't remember the last time we had sex? I'm starting to wonder if we got married, I heard that that will kill a sex life. Anyhow, I'm so lost in life that I have no real clue as to what is going on, I just get up and go to work and come home and drift around until I'm drunk enogh to go to sleep, then get up and do it again. With that said, my problem for tonight lies in the fact that I have no alcohol. I'm starting to wonder how I shall get to sleep tonight...It's after one in the morning and I'm not tired at all, this is gonna suck. ok, I'm done, goodnight.