wondermutt

Emotionlessness 4-10-04

I'll start fresh
And fight with creativity
As milky white smoke pours from my lips
I asked the pain to go away
But now that it's gone I miss it
Its presence was somehow comforting
But emptiness and lackluster emotion
Takes its place
Now not even thundering drum solos can bring me solice
I've sacraficed myself
Upon an alter of love
Only to be wishy washy in my feelings
I'm uncohecive and lost
Longing for a solid direction
I used to know myself
Or my many selves
Unable to grasp even one of me
I'm emotionless and devoid
Lost in this cloud of smoke
Searching for an exit an outlet or an entrance
Feeling around blind
Trying to find one of myselves
Longing to truely know love
Or pain or peace or hate
Could I have finally escaped myself
Maybe I'm happy in another life
Or maybe God has taken me
From high on a cross
Maybe he has taken my soul
And left my mind in purgatory
To roam and wonder
In an endless void of emotionlessness.