I never write it here. I have another journal, and I always think it's dumb to have more than one, unless one is for private stuff or something specific, but this is comes with my membership so I'll use it.
I have to renew that too, next month. More money I'll be spending. I so hope I get this new job. I don't want to psyche myself up to the point where everything is riding on this new job and when I don't get it (and I probably won't, since there are people who are way more qualified than I am, but I still hope that I get it anyway), I don't want it to be a huge let down. Seriously though, if I get this job, it will solve all of my financial problems. My dad won't have to help me out with rent money at all, which is a huge strain on him financially now that they increased his cost share, so if he doesn't have to pay me, he'll be able to pay off his debt a lot faster, and he might even be able to buy cds and order out food without everyone yelling at him not to spend his money. And if I get this job, I'll be completely financially independent: no one helping me out, no students loans, no anything; which is a huge deal for me, since most people my age are still tied to their parents. Plus, I'll have enough spare money from this job that I'll be able to spend more on Pansy if I have to/want to, and I'll be able to spend a little more on myself, depending on how much I want to save every month.
The downsides to the new job are that I'll be working 3.5 more hours (I already for 22-24 hours/week now and go to school full time and have my apartment and my dog to take care of), and I'll have to get up by 6:30 am three days a week. I won't be able to stop home at all around noon to feed Pansy or let her out, which means I'll always have to walk her a lot every morning and can't sleep in at all, and she isn't used to be left alone for that long so she might destroy stuff. Plus, when I get home, I'll have to take her out right away since she'll have been inside for almost 12 hours. Plus, I'll have days were it's like work, school, work with no breaks in between and I'll have to walk everywhere super fast so I'm not late for work. Also, my work schedule will be weird because of my classes and the hours of the job, and the fact that I don't have a car.
The good things are that I'll be home by five every night, I'll be financially independent, I won't have to worry so much about money anymore, and I'll never have to work weekends, except for my other job which doesn't count since the hours are so flexible anyway.
Yeah, boring money crap.
I got my dad a bunch of out of print stuff of his favorite comedian on ebay. It's like he doesnt care though. I think his memory has been getting noticeably worse lately, but it's like I get him this stuff and I'm sure he really does like it but he never says anything.
I love speed. I'm still on speed a bit right now, but it's gone down a lot from when I was really on it around one or so. That was fun. I want to have a day off soon where I don't have to work so Kiki can come over and we can just do speed and talk about tons of stuff like we did that one time. I really need to start hanging out with people at times besides when I have parties. That was one of my new year's resolutions. Part of it is that I almost never have time besides when I have parties to see anyone, but a lot of that is because I'm lazy and never get my work done right away. Speed is such a fun drug when you're on it. You don't get tired or come down really bad like with pot or alcohol, and you can still function normally if you have to, and you aren't hallucinating shit for hours so you can actually go places without worrying if you look like you're really fucked up. And it's so cheap. Watch, I'll probably get kicked off of here for talking about drugs because it's in some FAQ I never read. Oh well, time to do my work.
Update on the fucking asshole trolling guy: hes going to other journals from peoples friends list and making them hate him too, which makes me happy because then Ill never have to deal with people saying hes a good guy, because hes not: hes a fucking jerk and a psychopath and he goes out of his way to be an asshole to people, although Im sure people would figure that out anyway even if he didnt post shit thats basically, all your opinions are wrong and youre stupid and Im right about everything and smarter than you.
Im actually going to get my hair dyed today by a real professional person instead of doing it in my bathroom and fucking it up somehow. Yay!
I have to renew that too, next month. More money I'll be spending. I so hope I get this new job. I don't want to psyche myself up to the point where everything is riding on this new job and when I don't get it (and I probably won't, since there are people who are way more qualified than I am, but I still hope that I get it anyway), I don't want it to be a huge let down. Seriously though, if I get this job, it will solve all of my financial problems. My dad won't have to help me out with rent money at all, which is a huge strain on him financially now that they increased his cost share, so if he doesn't have to pay me, he'll be able to pay off his debt a lot faster, and he might even be able to buy cds and order out food without everyone yelling at him not to spend his money. And if I get this job, I'll be completely financially independent: no one helping me out, no students loans, no anything; which is a huge deal for me, since most people my age are still tied to their parents. Plus, I'll have enough spare money from this job that I'll be able to spend more on Pansy if I have to/want to, and I'll be able to spend a little more on myself, depending on how much I want to save every month.
The downsides to the new job are that I'll be working 3.5 more hours (I already for 22-24 hours/week now and go to school full time and have my apartment and my dog to take care of), and I'll have to get up by 6:30 am three days a week. I won't be able to stop home at all around noon to feed Pansy or let her out, which means I'll always have to walk her a lot every morning and can't sleep in at all, and she isn't used to be left alone for that long so she might destroy stuff. Plus, when I get home, I'll have to take her out right away since she'll have been inside for almost 12 hours. Plus, I'll have days were it's like work, school, work with no breaks in between and I'll have to walk everywhere super fast so I'm not late for work. Also, my work schedule will be weird because of my classes and the hours of the job, and the fact that I don't have a car.
The good things are that I'll be home by five every night, I'll be financially independent, I won't have to worry so much about money anymore, and I'll never have to work weekends, except for my other job which doesn't count since the hours are so flexible anyway.
Yeah, boring money crap.
I got my dad a bunch of out of print stuff of his favorite comedian on ebay. It's like he doesnt care though. I think his memory has been getting noticeably worse lately, but it's like I get him this stuff and I'm sure he really does like it but he never says anything.
I love speed. I'm still on speed a bit right now, but it's gone down a lot from when I was really on it around one or so. That was fun. I want to have a day off soon where I don't have to work so Kiki can come over and we can just do speed and talk about tons of stuff like we did that one time. I really need to start hanging out with people at times besides when I have parties. That was one of my new year's resolutions. Part of it is that I almost never have time besides when I have parties to see anyone, but a lot of that is because I'm lazy and never get my work done right away. Speed is such a fun drug when you're on it. You don't get tired or come down really bad like with pot or alcohol, and you can still function normally if you have to, and you aren't hallucinating shit for hours so you can actually go places without worrying if you look like you're really fucked up. And it's so cheap. Watch, I'll probably get kicked off of here for talking about drugs because it's in some FAQ I never read. Oh well, time to do my work.
Update on the fucking asshole trolling guy: hes going to other journals from peoples friends list and making them hate him too, which makes me happy because then Ill never have to deal with people saying hes a good guy, because hes not: hes a fucking jerk and a psychopath and he goes out of his way to be an asshole to people, although Im sure people would figure that out anyway even if he didnt post shit thats basically, all your opinions are wrong and youre stupid and Im right about everything and smarter than you.
Im actually going to get my hair dyed today by a real professional person instead of doing it in my bathroom and fucking it up somehow. Yay!